Talk is Cheap

2007-12-13T13:27:00.000-08:00

♥

Sometimes I wish I were a little kid again, skinned knees are easier to fix than broken hearts. I won't cry because it's over. I'll learn to smile because it happened.

Relink me: http://www.theresey.blogspot.com/

2007-11-25T01:26:00.000-08:00

♥ My Super Number One

The Razzberry M&M taste weird to me.. but the packaging and all is good! :)
You can get them at Watsons.
I got them 2 weeks ago.. I wonder if you still can find it now.

Boys should be like chocolates! The richer the better ;)

******

Feels like CNY. My aunts and uncles have been blessing me wit big red pkts, thanks thanks :) Last min really got a lot of relatives offer to drive us. Touched touched. But above all, mum alr promised her best fren, Auntie LY, to drive us over.

My luggage is very big. Looks exaggerating, but I heard that everyone's luggage are big as well. haha. No choice!! The thick winter clothings are taking up too much of space! Oops, despite winter time, I brought along the tee that N405 did for me too! hee. Thanks Eza for the China card! Saved me from some troubles :)

Btw, my room-mate is MAY WEE!
:D :D :D
We appealed like mad can! Phew. Cos she's from DBI, I'm from DMIT. Different course. But thankfully, we're together!
Initially, Ms Valerie kept pushing Cassandra, Joshepine and me to bunk together. I dont mind, but of course, I suppose it's better to bunk together wit your good fren yeah?

Yeah yeah! Thats my MAY (:

Im wanna delete away my current blog, and create a new one! But there's too much considerations. But when Im free over in Beijing. I WILL!! haha. I will kope Boyf's laptop for my personal use. He got his PSP Slim enough alr lah!

:D

I will miss my mum and dad badly):
But girlfren Cheryl promised to visit my place twice a week or so.
Fang xin, fang xin (:
I will miss N405, A5C, my 不则不扣的恶心八婆, the manymany friends..
I will miss my messy room, my stinky Doraemon, everything lah!
Wait. One last thing. I will miss SINGAPORE'S WATER and TOILET!!

Father, please be with me. Hold my hands and walk with me forever. Let the past be the past. I need your grace and mercy. Help me not look back anymore. No matter how much I'll miss, let this emotional attachent go. Let it go. I don't want to live another day in lies. I can't deceive myself for another day. I feel so deprived. I'm so disguised. It has been for years. Honestly, I'm drained out emotionally; never once, after this attachment, have I felt whole again. It's biting into my bones for years. People ard me doesn't know, but the higher I climb, the greater I achieve, the emptier I got in the inside. Yes Father, I'm weak. Let me walk with you so I can say I'm strong. I trust everything that I am into Your hands. Break my heart and soul for what that break Yours. Let me die to my flesh. Reveal to me LORD, I wanna live again. I wanna have You in me. Never more could I be more thankful, I love You, amen.

It's finally my time to move on.

2007-11-19T23:17:00.000-08:00

♥ I wanna be one day of you so much. That I can think your thoughts.

I miss MISA Travel so much; perhaps, not the company, but the people.
Heidi XueNi Lisa Heidi XueNi Lisa Heidi XueNi Lisa

My dept held a farewell BBQ for me, at West Coast Park last Saturday.
Will blog abt it soon :)

I've been to sch for 2 hrs just now; sitting beside a monster. laughs. Seriously, when I saw Monster A in the lab. First thought, GG! But well, that monster and me came to an agreement, peace. Hopefully, that peace will last!! hah. Wadever it is, he still passed me some drama files :) TY.

Jelinda, Arthur, Derek, Wei Looooooon, Darren blahblah are also in the same lab. Most imptly, GladysNg is beside my lab only! (Anw, one week only wad. Flying off soon~)

Bought white fungus boiled wit red dates & longan from Chinatown all the way to sch. Specially for GladysNg, Tao and AO. They better be happy! Cos the dessert's not cheap plus it's good for skin!

Liang Lin, Tao and Gladys were sweethearts today because they came to acc me for quite some time.. despite time factor. I mean, they're rushing for their final presentations & reports thats due tmr. Love love!

Ytd was Keh Luh's Bday.

She's one of my best frens in secondary times, and we used to gossip a lot! She's also the skinniest monkey in our clique. Because shes underweight, I used to admire her a lot! haha.

Aft svc on Sunday, I went to meet Jia Jia and her at Geylang for food :)
The afternoon sun was scorching blindness, I hated it to max!!

Small small eyes. Finally my eyes are bigger than hers!

My pretty darling :)

I cant help but, love them!

I've started working on my new blogskin =)
Still thinking for a new URL.

Cassandra is my FYP partner :)
Whee.. Hope that we can work well together can score for the last time man! And and.. we're planning to meet up every morning to mark attendance, bring movies to watch tmr, and download softwares!

And it's time to lose weight ): Again. I've been only eating during IAP.
Now, I've grown.

2007-11-18T22:31:00.000-08:00

i lost my harddisk
this is so depressing

2007-11-16T00:03:00.000-08:00

Big portions of laughters today
• Winston and Jeff are acting big time gays in office
• Heidi and me carried Lisa's heavy roller chair out of the office
when shes in toilet

Because I was the ~~senior~~ intern there, they want me to go and collect some old invoice. LUCKILY I insisted to have Grace and Shi Hui along wit me, that storeroom feels haunted ): Okay, lets not discuss it further.

Anw, I brought Grace to People's Park (Kent Holidays) to help customers register VISA. Wheeee! Managed to squeeze out 30mins for light shopping :D Well, 30mins is better than nothing. Moreover, it's ard 4.30pm, still working hours. Bought some ear studs.

Heard of duck satays before? Or even, deer-meat satays?
My funny colleagues wanna order them for my farewell BBQ.
:\
I dont dare to eat.. haha.

Sidetrack.
I FINALLY INSTALLED MY NEW BBWAN!
Now, I surf the net wit higher speed :)
But it FEELS the same..

And today, Wendy's not in the office half of the day. Thats worth celebrations! :\

♥ Dry your tears. Rest assured. You gonna play the game again.

Photo taken at Sports Champ 07/08.

It's EXCOs gathering tmr!!
A farewell party for the 6 of us who's going Beijing in a week.
Especially looking forward to meet Cheryl Love and GladyNG :)
I think AO's coming Chinatown to meet me aft work agn. Haa.

2007-11-14T23:05:00.000-08:00

♥ Some love's worthless, some love's priceless. Im just the lucky one.

NINE BLACK CLIPS

KNITTED GREY CARDIGAN

JAY LOVERS; POOR CAMERA LIGHTING

SHUNNING AWAY

CANDID; NATURAL

POSED; RANDOM

LOVE

MORE LOVE

3 more days to the end of attachment.
As I cross the dates off my calendar, I'm beginning to feel sad..
Another goodbye is near ):

2007-11-13T00:36:00.000-08:00

♥ I need to hear you sing the love song once again

At work..

Xue Ni always have this pose, like she's a baby drinking milk.
Trust me! Heidi got a lot of her drinking-milk candid shots!

After work, went to meet the girls for dinner in town for ramen :D
- at the first HALAL Japanese restaurant (Guess where!)
Met Tong at Douby Ghaut first. Shes late! Because she skipped work and so, she gotta fake MC.. I waited for 20mins plus at the station, reading VIVI.. Hmph.

At the restaurant..

The taller ones.. Tong got the very China look here.

After dinner, we walked for s few rounds and Tong started yakking abt going to Heeren to collect her Jay album. On the way there, Tong shared quite a lot wit me. Stuffs relating to r/s. I was suddenly enlightened, aft much thinking. Thanks girl, appreciate it.

Btw, I saw Tian Shui & Daryl in town. They just went over to Rickson's neighborhood to dye their hair. Alamak! I cldn't recognise Daryl; his hair is so golden.. like big gangster. Shall take photo wit him on Saturday! And Tian Shui, goodluck to your bball match yeah! (No $10,000)

The two Jay super-fanatics!!

The Jay cowboy ♥

Aft collecting her wa-wa, Jel had a sudden crave for choco fondue.
So we walked back to Ngee Ann City to the Coffee Club. I was super tired by then. Still, I went along wit the girls. I mean, how many times do we get to meet up? Maybe fortnightly.

Pretty jie-si-ka..

Jess and me shared the mud pie. YUM :)
Love oreo crumbs wit ice cream!

She's been one of my fave girls in poly since 2 years ago (:

Finally, their fondue.. Jel's very happy to see her dessert served (:

I never fail take photo every year wit the Christmas trees at Ngee Ann City. Haa!
Too bad, Ying's not inside wit us.. Else picture perfect.
(She missed today because shes having OT for some reasons)

I'm really tired.. Goodnight darlings; I going to bed now.
* Heidi's on leave tmr; feels like its going to be bored w/o her :(

your tongue is honey-coated
your words flow too smooth
your character is my mystery
i never knew you deep enough
to believe you a hundred percent

2007-11-11T22:45:00.000-08:00

SIX days counting down to the end of my attachment.
I'm like, so attached to my attachment alr.
Time dont fly, please dont fly..

Im thinking of buying a domain over :)
Otherwise, change my blog URL ♥

2007-11-09T23:12:00.000-08:00

♥ While I was holding on, all you did was let go.

The next 0502 Gathering shld be on the 23rd of Nov.
I can't wait to see the girls and my yanting-jie agn :) Haa.

I ~~thought~~ I have an impt date that day. So I rejected the idea of having the gathering on 23rd initially. But come to think, its highly possible that good fren has alr forgotten abt it. I can't help, but I'm transforming into an assumption machine.

And when I got to know that my assumptions were a hundred percent correct, I feel like a big idoit, you know, A BIG TIME FOOL. Aah wadever! At least I know that you've never taken my words seriously. Does it feels good? To have ur so-call good fren pinning day and night for 23rd to come, yet on your side you can forget abt the date? Or do you want to tell me, you didnt expect me to be so serious abt it? If you don't mark your words, shudddddup and don't promise in the first place. You don't know how it feels. It's heartbreaking but it doesnt matters anymore. I don't care how angry you're going to get when you read this, but if you're all out to grieve me or fume me, you did it. You dont have to come up wit anymore strong words or tactics, to self-claim that its for my own good. This is enough alr. THANK YOU GOOD FREN.

♥ When one person is gone, it feels like the whole world just depopulated.

八婆 steamboat at Bugis!
It's Heidi's treat :D

As usual, I was knocked in the head for being major prawn-eater.
Man! I tell you, I dont know why but I cld never get sick of eating prawns!

Someone whom I can comfortably share work secrets with :)

Wheeeee! I can tie my hair alr!! Super happy..
(With 8 hair pins, 1 hairband)

Over steamboat, we shared a lot and we were disgusted by some issues related to work ): Anw, aft the steamboat, we went shopping. Bought a lot of things that day from SASA. Heh. It was such a lovely night wit the girls. I really look forward to more of these!!

I still remember that I asked a good fren to accompany me to SASA. Because I wanna get mask etc for my overseas trip. But I dont think that good fren remembers it anymore.

Hearts.

BANANAS

My three happy pills at work! :D
The center lady is Lisa. She shld go and join 梁家班 lahh! She super funny can..
***

Today, Lisa asked me 孝顺 in English. I told her it's filial (piety). Then she turned to Xue Ni and shouted across the office, "Xue Ni! You're so failure!"

HAHAHAHAHAHA
Heidi laughed until she cried;
I almost vomit blood through laughing!
***

It's Sports Champ tmr; took a leave frm work, I'll be there :)
Good luck people!

2007-11-08T02:28:00.000-08:00

I'm tried my best. I can't sleep.
Boy, I haven't say goodnight to you..

Now playing Jay's 我不配.

2007-11-07T00:07:00.000-08:00

Today was a day of pain. And more pain.
Imagine gastric and cramp clashes; how pain can it be?
:(

Dated Gladys and May to Bugis. Supposed to be a happy girls day, yet screwed by pains. Despite the abcdefg pain, I die also want to meet GladysNg. IF NOT, she'll nag & blame me the next time she sees me, FOR SURE. Aha.

During dinner, I came to know a lot of things that I've been missing out. It was more than disheartening to hear the stories of how the current batch is doing. Really, I felt sad.
♥ If our EXCO pledge still rings a bell

I cross my heart and say; wadever the seniors do, they mean the best for you guys. And eh hello. If you guys wanna prove yourself and do better than us, at least, DO IT. For golly goodness! ACTION SPEAKS LOUDER THAN WORDS. No, we're definitely not looking down on you guys. But up till now, seems like there's only high aims and poor actions. Remember, leaders who are so caution and careful abt the tongues of others WILL NEVER GO HIGH. It's not just about preserving reputation and social standing. It's abt the passion to drive a vision even wit persecuted ideas and advocates. Lastly, be responsible enough to bear consequences, yet NOT play hero. If seniors can do it, I see no reasons why the juniors can't.

2007-11-05T23:26:00.002-08:00

♥ Go hoola wit 49 kilograms and 169.5 centimeters

On urge to lose weight urgently!! I felt so guilty for not exercising during attachment days; I only eat and eat and eat and eat.. Cheryl Lim, please invite me to go jogging wit you whenever you do.

The thought of turning 20 in a year sent me jitters.. :(
If I were to be as fat as current when I turn 20, I rather not live.
So I made a short vow to myself, I must hit down to 49kg when I turn 20.

♥ It's a black bingo.
:(

Saturday after work, as usual, my girls and me left the company together. We saw big crowds gathering ard our work area. I mean, BIGGGGG crowds (ard hundred plus ppl?) Feels like Jacky chan is filming an ad in Singapore. Super exagerating! Being curious, we took glances from our workplace. But because the crowds were THAT big, we caught nothing in sight.

Yeah, who don't know that the aging population in Chinatown is high? Heidi and Xue Ni inferred that there must be some poor old uncle/auntie who tripped at the staircase. And they were like, so confident of their guess.."Must be must be!"

I casually loose my imagination, and hit a black bingo.
Jokingly, "It might be a robbery case and the robber might have stabbed an old uncle into the chest.. Because the robber wants to murder him so that the poor man couldn't give chase, scream for help and recognise the robber!"
Heidi almost threw her bag at me for the wild thought.

This morning, Boss and Grace passed me this newspaper article to broadcast on CRM to the whole company.
Stunned.

Click it and read it.
Fyi, all my photos in the blog can be clicked to be enlarged :)

Though it happens before my itchy mouth, I still feel bad abt it.
I'll be praying for that the poor indian uncle..

2007-11-04T22:05:00.000-08:00

ARISE AND BUILD
The fire, was to be restored in each and everyone's heart.
Let faith arise; as we decrease, let Him be increased plentifully :)

Boyf & me made a pact.
For every soul that either of us save, the other gotta give a good treat.
So, I owed him one dinner at Jack's Place :)

I wished we would owe each other endless treats;
meaning, countless saved.

I'm a HARVESTER, honey.
Wait, not just a city harvester..
I'm born to be a harvestor in His kingdom :)
Because, I'm Therese.

I used to hate this name a lot, and only closer frens would know abt this name.
The low rating means? See below!

Means that by 1980s, the people wit the same name as me is super rare! Aha! Now I know. In times of Audrey Hepburn, Therese is a common name. Never mind abt the past, knowing what my name means now, made me took strong pride in it! :D

♥ Come baby, do a countdown birthday post wit me!

Perhaps the longest blog post for me :)

THANKS
for everything
Blessed.

For this nineteen, I'm veryvery contented wit all that I have. The celebrations was all fun and only fun, the presents I received were all loves (I'm ready to strike off a number of my wishes in my wishlist on the left of this blog!), the four cakes that I've cut were sweets and lastly, the friends that I have, I suspect they're all cotton candies. Too sweet to resist yeah.

Thank you thank you thank you & thank You.

Some of you might be wondering why I'm always in my black specs.
It's because I had an eye infection. So no contacts.
Diagnose: Dry and tired eyes Reason: Not enough sleep, over-strained my eyes & staring into the pixels of my computer for looooong hours! Cure: Artificial Tears

SUNDAY
A5C Gathering for my Nineteeeeen :)

\
The ROUND egg face.. is getting even rounder!!
(I bet AO must be laughing when he sees these 2 photos!)

just by looking at you makes me happy :)

i love my girls// i love my girls// i love my girls

Met TG at woodlands first.
From far, I saw her walking near wit a big bulky plastic bag.
I was thinking,
why on earth would she want to carry a big plastic bag for a gathering.
Reason will be revealed in the photos)

NEW YORK NEW YORK

♥ especially when the lights are dim, i dont see, i feel.

My surprise number one: A5C's Protrait!
Feels very much of manga though.
TG even bought a frame frm Art Friend to frame it up :)

My surprise number two: My favourite DORAEMON!
Its the one that I planned to get soon!
In actual size, it's size big.

My surprise number three: Overtine biscuit
Overtine biskuits inside the pocket of Doraemon!

That mug of root beer is as long as my face!
The cold crab at the center of Seafood Platter taste awful to me,
but JiaJia loves it a lot.

The three of us shared Seafood Platter for 2 & BBQ spare ribs.

UNGLAM!
JiaJia was cracking the crab claw wit me. Haha!
I was so afraid that small bits of the shell wld fly onto me..

I like this photo!! It's so Charlie Chaplin!

The darlings that are so close to my heart.

After all the food, we went for some shopping.
Bought some pretty bracelets and a ring :)

To my darlings.
Even though it's a belated bday celebration,
You girls really made my day!
I love you girls & I demand more of these outings!

SATURDAY
Dawn's 21st Birthday Chalet at Aloha Loyang

THANKS TO FABIAN!

ACTUALLY, I didn't want to wear that tee that day.
BUT because I promised the two girly that I will, they surprised me!
- by wearing similar :)

I love the two of them!
- sleeeeeeeepy eyes.

I cheong down right aft svc!
Board a cab,
had a soft heart attack at the first look of the cab meter.

!!
SIX DOLLARS AND FIFTY CENTS
Thats wad it takes to take a cab at EXPO during peak hours.

~~THANKS to my best boy fren & girlfren, I went there ALONE!~~

Christo! I like my complexion in this photo!!
Actually, I bumped into him 2 days ago. And I was veryveryvery happy because he's able to help me get sth! Thanks boy, beforehand!

~~Supposed~~ to act bimbo. But I doesn't seems to be one though, haha.
I haven got the bimbo version of Pris & Gladys; they've got a gift in that. Haha

Resting beside the pool, was really tired..
I look fat when lying flat ):

Birthday cake from her parents :)

At Pasir Ris.. squating down in a circle.. Laughs!
These guys are fun to hang out wit!

I don't know why I look so red, I didnt make-up that day.
(Fyi, I didnt take any alcohol that day)

The girls, the girls.
(I continued to look red)

I'm carrying that super cute boy! I mean, SUPER CUTE.
I want, I want, I want to give birth to a dozen!!
BUT, no man.
I wouldn't want to ask my kids to queue up in twos before bringing them out.

Chermaine and me are too tall..
She blocked Nic, I blocked Tattoo :s

Dawn, if you're reading this post, thanks for the invitation :) You look awesome that day. And babe, Live your adulthood to the maximum alright? (Our shopping date is still on!) Hearts.

FRIDAY
Happy Birthday to me, Happy Birthday to me,
Happy Birthday to meeee, Happy Birthday to me!

Clock strikes twelve....
and I was alr in bed sleeping away..

BUAAAA!
T surprised me wit this very very pink cake!
Madness, I thought.
Because he's tired & still, gotta work the very next day..
Yes, I really appreciate it :) Thanks T, love.

I was still hugging my bolster....
My eyes says im tired, but happy :)

Early morning when I woke up, I felt blessed to see these on the coffe table.

She specially woke up early to dye "pink" eggs and cook mee sua for me
:)

TADAH!
Early morning in the office, I was caught bai chi-ing candid!

I love my colleagues :)
These people really makes my day, everyday!

They're the three interns from Temasek Poly, but they alr left 3 weeks ago.
You don't know only, the company is so fun wit them ard!

:D
(Kaiwen have been bugging me for photos.. faint!)

Eye-candy! Shes got very pretty eyes :)
And I haven taught her photoshop before she left :s

AHA!
My ice-cream cakeeeeee :D:D
This is from my IT dept, they bought it from Holland Village.

Thiss ice-cream cake is rojak can!
You can find all sorts of junk inside, still, YUMMY :D

I've got 2 other october babies sitting wit me :)
Was very happy :D Thanks colleagues!

THREE boxes of Ang Gu Kuey from my lady boss!

At night after work, I had dinner wit my mum & dad :)
Black pepper crabs, wheat prawns, crisp egg tofu in special sauce.
All in big potions.

I'm very happy, nineteeeeen.

THURSDAY
It's cellgroup day, honey.
Also, birthday celebration for all October babies is MISA.

I thought its going to be another typical day..
(wearing Heidi's Abercrombie cardigan haha)

Swenson's ice-cream cake!
9 candles for 9 October babies :)
*Winston lied to me that I'm going to get early pay & lured me into the Art Gallery room!

I only know 5 people inside the photo and i'm the only one from IT dept inside the photo.. So it's quite.. 不好意思. Also, only October babies and one or two more colleagues frm the same dept can be there.

Sorry Tracy!

My lady boss :)
Shes very nice to everyone, and many colleagues like her!

TWO HUNDRED DONUTS

Screams! We dont have to queue for all these mouth-watering doughnuts!!
:D:D

Ming Lei and me brought 24 donuts back to our dept :)
(Spicy cheese was okay, but the double chocolate is so awsome!)

Winston, Shi Ming, Xue Ni
I had four donuts for the day. ~~BURP.~~

Cellgroup was good.
But before cg, we had a game, sth like concentration within partners
I got forfeited wit Shireen :s

I was SUPER scared of the rubber band!
Got a feeling it'll piak!

OUCH. Trying very hard to forsce it down..

After cg, they prayed for me and I got a Little Miss Scatterbrain!

Thank N405 :)

WEDNESDAY
It's Hello Panda day.

Snacked all the way in office. Sth like snack marathon. Incredibly, awesome!!
For 5 hours man.

First thing in the morning.
Heidi wrote me a threatening yellow note! So funny!
...... if not u will DIE!!!

The punch card machine!!
Goodness, thats what I'm most afraid of! Being late for work..

Caught candid! Eating the childhood snack, shan-za..

Heidi has become one of my happy pills in these 2 months.
I can't imagine how's life without her, Xue Ni and Lisa!

TUESDAY
Chinese EXCOs fine dining at Lez Brasserie

* Some of the following photos might have their contrast & resolutions ugly, because my company's oldest version of Photoshop has screwed them severely.

The ambience is VERY romantic.

Had a gastric problem out of the blue, which was very bad.
Just look at how pale my lips are ):

GLADYSNG, even though you're skinnier than me by ten times and I'm so jealous of your born-with-it body, I love you can!

Starters
I like the prawn & raw bacon! :D:D

We had a choice of salmon or beef for our main course.
I chose the salmon one, of course.

The salmon is a lil too.... FRESH! And Cheryl was complaining away that the salmon is tooooo fresh :D In fact, I thought the salmon was so fresh that, THE SALMON IS SO SALMON! Haha.

If you guys like to try the ocean freshness of salmon, try it here!
It's veryveryvery nice can.

Beeefy. Their comments were all super positive.
Too bad I'm not a beefy person, else I'll surely want to give a try!

Desert was strawberry ice-cream in a shallow pool of sweet watermelon juice.
The thin slice of maple crisp added to my liking for this dish!

I still rem ah lim exclaimed aft the first mouth of ice-cream, "Your chef need assistant?"
Because even the strawberry ice-cream itself, is a surprise!
Imagine the lumps of berries inside.. sour yet not very sour.

Actually this desert is not inside Lez Brasserie menu.
Many thanks auntie for designing the set dinner :)

Cam-whoring in the toilet.. Laughs.

That's Dawn :) And she's alr 21 yrs old!

The tiramisu cake is a huge surprise.When T told me that the cake everyone paid a share for it, I was 超感动的!

Boyfren and me :)
Thanks boyf for everything and I'm glad to have you in my life.

My girlfren, wit plenty of love.

My girlfrens dearest in EXCO :)
Sabby, GladysNG, Cheryl, Tao

My BCK

Mervyn & Vincent :)
-I invited Eileen too, too bad, she's coped up wit night class in sch.

Yew King, May, Xiao Wei & Cheryl
Hearts.

Wit all the beasts who came :)

And all the beauties who came :)

In total, there were 18 beauties and beasts at the dinner.
I'm sorry for not inviting the malay EXCOs, reason being, until the very last-minute then I realised that it's not a halal restaurant. I thought of changing a restaurant before, but boyf's mum alr designed the menu out for me and I can't push it away last minute. I still love them a lot and I hope they'll understand :)

MONDAY
Oh no. It's boring tuition again..

***

That's all for my nineteen :)
As in, the whole week.
I feel loved, very loved by friends, colleagues & family.
Thank God for placing wonderful people in my life.
God is good, good is God!
***

是你让我知道,
有些事情是不许要说得太清楚的。
只要一个拥抱，一切都会变成一种肯定。

可能你还不知道,
我喜欢你用双手紧紧抱着我，在我耳边轻轻地撒娇。
真的。

Boy, forgive me, I love you.

Tmr Heidi's treating the clique steamboat!
I'll blog again tmr :)

2007-10-19T22:01:00.000-07:00

YYY

Happy Birthday

Freak lots to share!
As usual, I'll blog everything at one shot on sunday yeah.
:)

Ps: Get all your photos frm me!! It's uploaded!

2007-10-14T22:51:00.002-07:00

没想到，从前的梦变成了现在的事实
时间错了
让人好怨恨，好不服，心痛，生气，什么都有
但就是放不下。
好怕
好害怕
真的怕了
。

♥ Some things I care so much but you never once let me know.

2007-09-30T22:30:00.000-07:00

♥ I’m searching for the words inside my head

Number one: my acc got hacked
Number two: frenster have virus
Choose one.

Incident number one: my birthday
Incident number two: greetings to people

I'm going to REFORMAT my pc AGAIN by this week.
I MUST!

2007-09-26T23:18:00.000-07:00

♥ Like films, our love story rolls on, never-ending.

The ultimate test of a relationship is to disagree, but to hold hands.
Very true :)

Happy First Anniversary to T and me

Early this morning, I received a few blessing msgs.
The longest one was from AO. Thanks BCK!

Cheryl met me up for work today.
- beams -

We actually push forward our date to one day before
because Thursday die die is our cg day.
R-E-S-E-R-V-E-D
How nice is it to spend our Anniversary worshiping & praising Him.
Place Him first and all things shall be added onto!

♥♥
Start the film rolling now.

After work, T's already outside the office waiting for me!
Got a shocked when Lisa & Wendy shouted,
"大小姐，你的男朋友已经站在外面等你了。你还慢慢来！"
Rushed out of the office wit his presents..
Then we walked to a remote corner to exhange presents.
(So malu to take out presents/ unwrap gift boxes in front of many ppl)

He was somewhat surprised to see a pink-striped formal top.
Of course, not just that, a black bermudas to go along.

We chastely proceeded to our next plan, dinner!

The restaurant: PASTA de WARAKU
The outlet we went was the one at The Central.
The exterior design of the restaurant was pretty eye-catching.

The table was a big sqeeeeeze. Blame all these extras.
We flapped our arms like chickens when we eat
until we got fed up and shifted placings.

Complimentary salad left a smile on my face.
Italian dressing perfected it and tasted flavorsome!
I promised T that I'm going to whip some salad dish myself this weekend

Both of us ordered cream pastas. It was MAD, so nice!
"SLURPS LOUDLY"
(We had the same cravings for bacons too!)

His: Potato Bacon blahblah

Mine: Bacon blahblah
Look at the egg yolk at the centre! It's beaming madly!
The plate looks big and the portion is ALSO big.

Although the creamy pasta had filled me to brim, still...

We also ordered the Scallop and Prawn Pizza.
We wanted to cancel off the order because we're already too full for anymore food.
BUT THEN again, our pizza is already in oven.
Anyway,
I like those scallops. They're uber sweet :D!

While savoring pizza, T urged me to unwrap the present that he gave.
KABOOOM!
.
.
S-U-R-P-R-I-S-E-S
Yes I'm very happy dear.
I know you must have spent a lot..
Thanks for all these small little things that you've planned :)

He sent me home at night & we cam-whored a lot.
Happy day wit you.

♥♥
Some words I say for the sake of saying.
Some words I didnt say but actually, meant my all.

2007-09-24T23:24:00.000-07:00

I'm coming to my nineteen soon in October.
At this pt of life, I'm overjoy by wad God has provided me.

♥ If life could stay like this, I dont mind 420.

I've got good parents who gave all love to me,
doting boyfren T who always be wit me,
close EXCOs cliques (strongly includes AO, Cheryl & Gladys),
nice poly classmates (I know we'll be in touch),
my ever-dearest BFF Jessie,
bestie Prisca,
goody fren Yiling,
close sec sch frens who always have my mind,
cranky primary sch frens
and lastly, my sweetheart LiShi.

At this point, I know, one day if I fall, I have so many to catch me.
Including Him.
It's enough.
I thank You for placing nice people in my life.
Thank You.

2007-09-23T07:48:00.000-07:00

♥ your eyes that shine like sapphires

Photos not edited in any way.
And I like my skin, continue to work for smoother touch!
The girl beside me is Jamine, my RVPS classmate.
RVPS = River Valley Primary School
Talking abt RVPS, I suddenly miss Deenie now.

Got a litte too huffy with T ytd after the steamboat.
Things just seems to go wrong here & there

I lost count of how many "Never mind, it's okay. Forget it." I've said.
Feels like things are all out to outrage me
I'm sorry dear, I shouldn't have.
I'll quit my ill-temper, promise.

God led me to a website today
I was very blessed. Blessed blessed blessed.

♥ I miss school's Macdonald: $4.20 per meal.

Chinatown has got so many treasures lah.
Treasures refering to ugly fugly old shop-houses wit weird smell.
Yet, the best thing is, everything appears CHEAP to me!

The acrylic rings I bought. Sugar sweet :D

2007-09-22T09:38:00.000-07:00

♥
This coming thursday is going to be the first anniversary for T & me.
Very excited cos we're going to spent this day together in cellgrp :D
How blessed!

AO bought me Gourmet Jelly Beans again!
This time, the beans are in a tube.
I think the cup packaging booo big time because the red re-sealable lids are such pests.
Beans always spills out into my bag
& I ended up shooting all those gross spilled beans into the bins.
Yuck.
Anway, thanks boy :)
Liquorice & Popcorn flavour remains my Number 1 No No.

2007-09-16T18:06:00.001-07:00

I'm blogging now now NOW!
:D
:D
:D

See August 27th post.
(That's the last day of my loooooong hair)
and
See August 30th post.
(Steamboat with classmates)

More coming up

scroooooooll down baby.

2007-09-12T01:53:00.000-07:00

♥ How great is our God

Thank God :) I'm getting happier wit working life!
It's busy everyday but it's fruitful yeah.
Tried to meet cheryl to go for work today but she went to the wrong direction..
b-l-u-r girl.

When I reach office today, Heidi passed me some pretty chocolate flakes! Love love love :D Obviously I was happy for the rest of the day!

Pretty sweetheart food! She made them during the weekends, hearts :)

I snacked the whole pkt within like.. 5hrs?
It's easy to make and yums! I'm planning to do some for my cg :D
OR I'll drag along some sis to do tog.

Went to The Central with my colleagues for lunch today. Had korean food, I ordered the "拌饭"It's expensive and way too slimy. Aft eating, Xue Ni acc-ed me to queue for some mini donuts :) These are not for myself okay! I specially queued for AO since I promised him. Hehs.

It's actually not worth the price because the quantity, like the size, is petite.
My faves are the cinnamon sprinkles & peanuts soaked in maple syrup.

Boss treated us cheesecake frm Hiton Hotel. That's during our 10 mins tea-break. Gosh, 10 800g of cheesecake cost $500! My generous boss! :D but it FEELS LIKE 爆风雨前夕. I'm not the only one who think this way, in fact, ALL of us feels the same..

BECAUSE,
tmr there's NATAS Airfare Fair at Expo Convention Hall! I'll have a SUPER hard time in office man! Doing all the vouchers, integrations & mark-ups.. FAINT.. But Heidi will definitely be worst than me; perhaps out-of-breath, I bet! Previously the NATAS for Cruises was okay okay. But this time, DALALALALA~ Speak no evil yet.

God bless!

I MIGHT be cutting my hair, shorter AGAIN.
Monsoon is having a hair modeling show at Dragonfly club at St James Power Station.
I'm really thinking VERY hard if I shld go for it again.
It'll appear on Moonsoon 2008 mag. What an opportunity!

Rejected another bridal modeling (Wedding Bells). This time, I was VERY surprised when they called. They called & asked if I'm interested to be their model.

Me: Hur? Why me? Er actually I'm very surprised because I didnt expect calls, cos from wad I know wed bells have quite a no of models to choose frm..
WB: Yes, it's over a selection of 20 plus faces. All the girls are around your age, very tall & slim.
Me: I mean, why me?
WB: You're in one of the 3 selected girls because you got the face that we're looking for.

I got the face of bride?! Funny hur.

Rate: $6/photo (roughly ard 25-40 photos will be taken; 2 sets of wedding gowns & 2 sets of bride-maid gowns) They mentioned that they need young ladies for posters to be framed up, because their target customers are young girls (aged 18-35) who wants to get married. I was thinking WHO WILL WANT TO GET MARRIED AT 18? Funny. But shooting will be on weekday evenings (mon-thurs only, pick one day, must also see when are the two other girls available) at city call.

My colleagues are encouraging me to go for it like mad! When I was talking on phone, they made quirky background sounds -.- sweats. Seems to be a pretty good deal but I'm really very busy wit life recently. And I think they definitely can get better girls :) So I rejected. Modeling is not my calling. For Monsoon & Lilies, I'm modeling just for exposures.

2007-09-06T23:28:00.000-07:00

This is going to be a temporary post. My office blocked all access to blogs, frensters, msn etc. It's worst then sch because it even blocked proxy servers & cmd break codes.

I'M STILL ALIVE OKAY!!

I'm sorry ppl for not able to blog because I'm so tired. I reach home aft 10pm everyday because I've been meeting up my frens one by one :):)

By sunday, I'll finish blogging.... (I will try my best & make sure!!)
1) My last day of looooong hair (before my modeling post)
2) Class Steamboat Outing
3) S.I.T Club AGM
4) Iron-man Camp
5) Mon - Meetup Cheryl, AO & Boyfren for dinner at city hall. Tuition.
6) Tues - Half-day leave to sch for BITC Interview. Aft work, meetup Cheryl, Gladys, AO, Mervyn & Boyfren for Dinner and slacks.
7) Wed - Tuition
8) Thurs - Cellgrp

I'm planning to return back to my lovely clubroom tmr :D

♥ Everyday is something because He made it this way

2007-08-30T22:41:00.000-07:00

♥ Our time is running out;

Tommorrow is Annual General Meeting (AGM) already.
There's so much I wanted to say, yet nothing much was expressed.

ONE YEAR
of togetherness.
Went through roses & torns, seen masks & faces,
And I am thankful to God for placing me in the club.
No. I did not slipped off, neither did I crample.
Im standing stronger than one year ago.

Still,
I was proud to be one of S.I.T Club :)

Its time to return back to Abba after all these.
Thank You for even this chance of being a student leader :)

I think im drowning
Asphyxiating
I wanna break the spell
That you've created
You're something beautiful
A contradiction
I wanna play the game
I want the friction
You will be
The death of me
Yeah, you will be
The death of me
Bury it
I won't let you bury it
I won't let you smother it
I won't let you murder it
Our time is running out
Our time is running out
You can't push it underground
You can't stop it screaming out
I wanted freedom
Bound and restricted
I tried to give you up
But I'm addicted
Now that you know I'm trapped
Sense of elation
You'd never dream of breaking this fixation
You will squeeze the life out of me
Bury it
I won't let you bury it
I won't let you smother it
I won't let you murder it
And our time is running out
And our time is running out
You can't push it underground
you can't stop it screaming out
how did it come to this?
And you will suck the life out of me
Bury it
I won't let you bury it
I won't let you smother it
I won't let you murder it
And our time is running out
And our time is running out
You can't push it underground
You can't stop it screaming out
How did it come to this?

i have photos to blog.
but all of a sudden, the feeling gushed away~

2007-08-30T01:56:00.000-07:00

(I'm loving my hairstyle)

Today's of fun fun fun :D
And I guess I'll really miss these people when I step into the working society.

♥ As we look back to sunsets, lets taste of the good memories

Met cheryl, as usual, to school.
We've got the IAP (Industrial Attachment Programme) talk at 10am.
Both of us were very late. We rch ard 10.30am.
We msg-ed Zaty, since she's equally late, we met outside the lecture theater to go in tog.

When Zaty saw me, she exclaimed -.-
(That's the 2nd time she saw me aft my hair-cut & she still scream!)
My first thought was, how will the ppl in the LT think abt my hair?

When we stepped into the LT,
the repeated lines I heard was, "Wah WeiShan! Wad happened to your hair?!"

Many says it suits me better :D and was more STYLE.
Was relieved to hear that.
You know, aft you CHOP off your hair to sacrifice for a fashion runway,
and aft that, ppl comes aft you wit ugly comments,
I WILL FAINT!

Then, heart attacks followed.
I was posted to MISA Travel at Chinatown
SUPER SUPER SAD
But I know deep down that He have His reasons for placing me there :)

Went into Simon's office. FWAH! Found **blink blink**!
Some cakes from Awfully Chocolate :D

It's the "ALL CHOCOLATE" selection!
One of the most popular cakes frm Awfully Chocolate.
It's dark chocolate cake wit layers of dark chocolate fudge inside,
You'll love it if you love chocolates :)

It smells alcoholic. But there's absolutely no content of alcohol.
It taste.. SUPER DELICIOUS! yummmmm
(Mr Simon was kind enough to let us have one BIG piece each (:)

He's my BBWAN lecturer.
Somehow, he's one of those few very good lecturers ard.
Because he's motivational & he really know the modules well.
Unlike some lecturers, be lecturer for the sake of job title/ money.
Worst still, dont even understand the module they're teaching at all.
More Simonsss please!
:D

I look like an idoit here -.- But Mr Simon look as bad! :p

Aft these, I went boyfren's hse for lunch.
Not long aft, Cheryl went to meet Sabby & Wentao.

HELLO BOYFREN :)

This is REALLY candid.

Then, I went to meet GladysNg at Marina Hotel since she's working there.

Like Zaty, she screamed.
"TanWeiShan! SO SHORT CAN! I CAN'T BELIEVE LAH!"
-.-
I still love her though.

Went ZARA to shop :)

I like the mirror me.

Got this black jeans home :D

After shopping, I went ahead to meet the rest at Marina control station.

TUCK IN BABEY!

Dont play play okay!
This two 'Bai Lei' seems to be the best cooks among us for the day!
Esp Chen Lei :D

Chen Lei & Long Tern were actually my personal cook.
HAHA!
-I dont know why the oil just keep shooting in my direction!
Was so angry wit the stove. At first they thought I was fussy.
Then I showed them the marks of hot oil on me, so they became my personal chef :)

I asked him to help me wash off the shyts that's on those eggs.
And he CRACKED them!!
Big laughs when the egg yoke spitted out of the shell onto both our faces!

Cheryl sits on chair, WeiShan sits on her, Sabby sits on her & her!

Love this photo!!

Alvin, Cheryl, Sabby & me were the clique in class :)
-Alvin wasnt feelin well, so he missed it.

THE COMIC STRIP
(too lazy to edit)
Author: Chen Lei
Commander: Wei Loon

ONE

TWO

THREE

FOUR

Mr sleepy head in class.
He's super crappppppy & funnnnnnny.

The guys :)

HAHA! I wanted to be inside too..

Four gays.

Another one.

Wad are they doing? Killing crabs!

MURDEROUS!
(close two eyes* The crab actually trembled scarily after the first strong chop.. Felt really sad for the crab.... Some transparent fluid actually flowed out of the shell)

They were pretty amused by the number of satays I ate.
Seventeen.
Haha. I really like the satays man!

I poked them all into a bun.

Hearts these oily classmates!

Aft all BBQ, they were so HIGH & dont feel like going home that early.
So we all went for bowling.

Cheryl's they top scorer for the day!

Caught in action! whoooo~

Tired tired, Ivan: Dont disturb. I'm getting strategical to win!

My feet is the two at six o-clock direction.
All smelly o' smelly unite!

Long Tern. The FUNNIEST Malaysian award goes to him man!

The casual ones//
Loon, Long Tern, Ivan, Chen Lei, Sabby, Cheryl, Shan

These are the people in my year 3 class whom I think I'll really miss :)
CNET E2. Fun peeps!
I hope we'll rem each other even aft we graduate.

2007-08-28T23:14:00.000-07:00

♥ i had my hair say goodbye today

:)
A super long day trapped inside the Monsoon salon wit manymany hairstylists and models.

The theme is PUNK ROCK
(Yeah. I wonder why I'm so associated wit punk & band stuffs!)

My loooong hair in the costumes.
Long hair cannot be punk meh?
i actually like my fluffy skirt very much!

My personal stylist is May.
(the lady on the right of the photo)
Funny. She's the big sister over there..
everyone is going like, "da jie! where's the.. da jie! help me kiap this.."

i got a soft heart attack when she just chop of my long hair!
well, i kept part of it.
right gladys? HAHAHA

my hair became more than short.

the sexy babe there, yvonne (:
shes wearing a tube bra as top only and its SUPER COLD

Btw, all the models are from RP & SP.
(oldest twenty-yrs-old)

The only malay girl.
The shot is not clear, her hair colour supposed to be ash green.

Boyfren says she looks like one of those mime in orchard roads!

i like this photo :D
so i had it extra big size!

Cheerios!

He came to accompany me in case I'm get bored over there
Booooha! See boyfren's smile :D

:)

On the walkway wit May-jie.

Now, meet one of the top celebrity hairstylist in Singapore :)
ADDY LEE

SISTER'S SHOT
His hands super cold can!

He's really nice :)

after everything, boyfren took me to PS for some fried chicken & soya beancurd, then sent me home. I'm super tired now & I miss my long hair a lot.

Ps: Theres really too many photos to blog & i shall stop here for this entry :)
And before I forget, thanks meiting!

2007-08-27T21:35:00.000-07:00

BYE BYE LONG HAIR
hello short short hair..

im feeling sad.
all of a sudden, i realized how much i love my long hair..
it smells of shampoo
goodness, im going to get it cut off by tmr!
"please dont lemme leave you, wont you regret?"
im hearing things frm my hair.

:(

today's my last paper! PHEWWWWW.
and its easy! Thank God :D

went town wit cheryl. was fun fun fun. though we're super tired.
met may at a later time & xiaowei came along.
estimated number of photos we took today is 200. yeah baby,

& i haven slept for the whole night. BIG YAWN;

2007-08-27T03:05:00.000-07:00

Last day of our exams.
The paper was Security. Seriously, no kick.
Thank God! It was super easy :)
An A for that paper please.

Met boyfren at braddel for a short while. He's going for his class chalet.
He passed me MY breakfast & I'm made happy instantly!

Its our eleventh already :)
Im cutting my hair tmr. Make sure you still love me as much!

Our first station at far east: YA KUN
Because Cheryl kept complaining that shes hungry.
LOOK! The blue box is the 爱心早餐 that boyfren prepared for me. I love the eggs! It's like Macdonald's big breakfast those kinda egg :D But the GIANT sausages were really a bit too GIGANTIC.. haha

After breakfast, we went crazy in the toilet because
it just smells good & doesnt stinks at 10.30am
变态!

All cam-whoring that's going to happen starts wit THIS PHOTO
♥ Yes you know. Yew you know. Stop denying.

Sometimes, I really don't know wad shes doing,
the only thing I know is she's funny!

HELLO CHERYL

HELLO ME!

We went for neoprints.
AND it was SO FUN :D:D
Unlimited time for designing, made us so sick.

Aft some long walks, Cheryl groans her hunger.
So we went to the nearby MOS Burger for food.

My typical messy hair in class :)
Rebecca used to complained abt my messy hair haha.
Though its messy, I still like my hair VERY much
& I still can't explain it.

We walked into the winter clothings dept and guess wad?
.
.
.

!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I SUPER LOVE WINTER CLOTHINGS IN HOT PINK!
This is hot hot HAWT baby :D
不能不爱的！
I've already set my mind to get this.
It's way too hot and I'm so sure this can keep me warm.

Cheryl was in love wit this black "ear-piece"

On the way to far east, went to tried this GAP top.
A pity; gorgeous but there's only size L & XL left on the hangers.

Glittery top frm MANGO.
I'm going to get this asap :D

DONUTS :)
The choco pops were copycats of those frm Munchy Donuts!
The original Munchy's choco pops taste so much better.

♥ Unworthy, but because of You, I was made whole.

This eight scoops is freaky.
The girl who made this is so attitude to customers. Should

Doing the AGM video..

Love EXCOs so much.
While doing this video, the three of us teared.

♥ We're not crazy, We're just loving.

She just rebonded her hair. Nice nice!

Xiao Wei look like 面包超人 here!

超幸福的！

Frens for 2 years already. It was in a blink then.

GIRLFRENS SMILEYS

My life feels ever completed.
Budbye long hair.

That completed my happy day. Hearts girlfrens.

2007-08-25T21:33:00.000-07:00

THE GOLDEN RULE
do onto others what you want others to do onto you.

Yesterday's fellowship was at Changi Airport :) Jo was with us, we had other cellgrps there too.

We went to Popeye for dinner :D

HELLO.

Linda, one of my favouraite girls in N242.

loves

Fang, Linn & my two feets!

CaiPing & me shared the 4 piece meal.

Swinging the chicken ard.. HAHA

Gabriel finally smile -.-

hugs to them!

candid, unglam.

My past.

we did stupid things like this.

To put these in action, see below:

POOR JONATHAN
he must have been terrified by joshua

the last photo of the day~

after all laughters, Jo sent us to Yishun.
Thanks Jo & his husband :):)

2007-08-25T01:36:00.000-07:00

great! sabby & eugene told me to SHAKE my butt to max when i brisk walk. & now my butt feels solid muscle ache. AWW. maybe its because i haven exercise for manymany months.

its an achievement ytd for me: i managed to run alone ard the sch for 2 rounds.
so proud so proud! geee :D (smiles brightly)
and i brisk walked one round when the sky turned pitch dark.
i mean, ghostly dark.
i was still praying that baby would round the opp direction to look for me
yet, i thinked too much. he's playing bball -.-
(i was left behind by sabby, eugene & cheryl at this thrid round HAHA)

ivan dixiang & benjamin wad kind enough to print the past yr papers for security module for me aft the loooong day for me. thanks classmates! they're back to sch at 9pm can! touched touchhhed! i always bring troubles to you guys :X esp ivan & long tern. HAHAHAHAHA poor long tern.... nevertheless, its great to have you guys ard :)

aft all exercise, part of the EXCOS & yitjing did sth crazy :D:D
please, i mean, its really crazy. so h-i-g-h can!
(those scratches on my knee still hurts now..)
i'll blog abt it when we step down. yeah, when we step down!

♥ i like to do crazy things because im only eighteen.

2007-08-23T23:02:00.000-07:00

today's Broadband Wide Area Network (BBWAN) is a killer paper. i bet practically every CNET student thinks so. out of the exam hall, i heard,"fail already. die already. sub-paper already." this is the WORST examinable module that ive come across.

to me, this paper already feels very much like sub-paper.

well, im sitting behind marcus again. he's one of the smarties;
& directly aft the paper, he turns ard to me.
marcus: ( sadly) hai. im in no mood to talk already. i got 30 marks dont know how to do leh. shit lah. die already.
shann: funny hur. i only know how to do 30 marks (sadder face)

2007-08-23T07:59:00.001-07:00

oh good
everyone is telling me to keep my mid-long hair now.
sigh but i already gave her my words
wad to do? tell me.

she wanted to do bob hairstyle on me
its those uber short bob styles
(not those like sabby & lishi)
the length gonna be shorter than my face.

im young. im young. im only eighteen.
i want to try all different things on earth, but can i skip bob?
i dont know why, i just dont like bob.

still, i know baby wont ditch me because of my bob.
right darling?

skip that.

2007-08-22T01:08:00.001-07:00

♥ its all about new revelations everyday

puff puff puff! feeling so devastated
-cheryl just told me that....
now all the cutie sprees are here :(
(for your info, cutie spree is one of my top-fave spree ever)

okay, im in no shoes to complain actually,
since my bank account hits the legendary "below twenty dollars" curse.

skip unhappy issues.
im actually very happy to know that many loves N405 skin
:):)
and and! i love my mortal.
he/she is just cute lah!

ive many posts in my draft
& im goin to flood my blog wit old unpublished post one day!
YOU! wait & see. haha

2007-08-21T10:58:00.000-07:00

♥ overdosed by maple syrup

im in sch lib now alone
:(
chatting wit TG
(its a luck to chat wit her; she'll only get online annually)

little miss scatterbrain misplaced her BBWAN lecture notes
yeah, the whole thick stack!
FWAH, power..
it cost $6+ i think, to photocopy the whole stack

THANK GOD, seow ying is on her way to sch now
to deliver her notes for me to photocopy!
many thanks to ying :)

im so terrified by ivan's words since this morning
he said that he cant EVEN study finish BBWAN in a wk
since the top student made such remarks
i feel that my confidence have been eaten up!
:(

but looooooooooook on the bright side;
i've God's DNA, i hold part of His wisdom :D:D
but faith w/o works is DEAD!
so i better buck up now..
bye bye!

2007-08-20T23:16:00.000-07:00

as i promised........
GLADYS NG

忘恩负义
i taught her how to online shopping
yet she baotoh to theo that i went online to shop!
HAHAHA
i didnt! i really didnt!!
i just taught her the stepsssssss.
studying wit gladys is so fun
its all sharing, laughing, eating & sleeping ONLY

gladys's food;
so disgusting! see the contrast of the LENGTH.

im super proud of myself in one thing.
i ALWAYS smuggle food into the lib and NEVER once got caught.
;)
oh yes! gladys can survive in the desert alone.
really.
because she can self-entertain herself
then laugh laugh laugh~

she SEEMS really hardworking.

i ALSO SEEMS hardworking.

i think i wasted today :( sigh. not because of anyone but myself.. im so high today that i went disturbing ppl & i cant sit still!

(my poor BCK, he got pinched like mad HAHAHA)

the egg & cucumber aft one year :D
(and the egg turned out really ugly! super sad!)

this is wad he's saying to me on msn now..

aö ✖ fallen` says:
tan weishan
aö ✖ fallen` says:
i promise u something k?
aö ✖ fallen` says:
since u're coming tml..................
which means i will see u tml.............
so.. i promise u...
aö ✖ fallen` says:
i will PINCH UR FACE TWICE HARDER than u pinch me todae !

完蛋！

lastly; GLADYS, I LOVE YOU :D
i wont forget our date!

2007-08-20T00:36:00.000-07:00

♥ loving people fervently

i just blogged.
over at my cellgrp's blog
:):):):):)

i took the whole day to design the skin;
love it super much!
i couldnt stop laughing when i completed it, so HAPPY can!!
this is madness!
i hope my other members wld like it too
:D:D
c'mon in & take a look!
N405

from tomorrow onwards, im going to be super focus on my exams.
the two major paper this week is driving me nervous already!
i really haven started any revision.
BUT im not worrying. dont worry, dont worry!

i can do all things through Christ who strengthens me
:D:D
I CAN I CAN!

see me in sch lib mugging the whole day tmr!
& i promised boyfren,
if i were to ever online-shop again next week,
i'll CHOP my fingers!!
haha, LOVE many many;

2007-08-19T00:51:00.000-07:00

i spent close to an hour to get my templates back.
this is so stupid.

i even tagged on xiaxue's blog to ask blog experts for help
how dumb can it be! SWEATS
at least i know how to settle blogger problems NOW.

2007-08-19T00:29:00.000-07:00

i dont know what i just did,
this stupid blogger is driving me NUTS

im so irritated wit the templates and formats now
):

2007-08-19T00:06:00.000-07:00

im going bankrupt :(:(
self-discipline please, for me.
i spent more than $300 in these 3 days

im so HOOKED to online shopping now
didnt touch any books though next week is EXAM
these online shopping sprees is
much worst
than the real shopping we do in towns!

im going to blog in my cg blog
(where i can pen down my spiritual lifeee)
weeee!
sorry frens, im recently so not into blogging
but there're many things happening ard me.

i'll blog when the FEEL runs back my veins
:D:D
and i bet i'll blog up to FIVE post!

with boyfren at settlers cafe ytd's ytd.
:D

2007-08-12T21:41:00.000-07:00

had tuition in the afternoon, boring.
went west mall wit mum & dad aft that
finally re-contract our SCV.
but they've changed the analog black box to the current digital one
i still think the old black box looks more cool.

mum bought me
facial foam frm face shop
& new neckleman sandle
total damage in mum's wallet: fifty plus :D

weeee!
tmr is going to be super fun
& aft that is EXCOS cum OGL chalet
:D
looking very much forward to it!
:D:D
meeting yiling for breakfast tmr first
bye honeys!

2007-08-03T02:24:00.000-07:00

im already at my limits
no matter wad
im going to complete this project by my own TONIGHT

and end projects wit a giant full-stop.

2007-08-01T23:53:00.000-07:00

"Afghanistan says it won't free prisoners"

I HATE WARS.
I HATE KIDNAPS.
I HATE MURDER.
I HATE RUTHLESSNESS.

i received a text msg frm nicky and i tot it typical chain msg.
many of my frens also think so! LOL
(maybe theres really too many chain msgs ard)

Pls pray for the Korean Christians in Afghanistan who were doing volunteer work in the hospital. They will start to kill 9 of them at 1030 tonight. Pls pray for them n msg to as many ppl to pray so that God would strengthen them and turn the situation around. Pass the prayer chain

sounds ridiculous. yet true like typical tragedy ):
UNTIL boyfren kept assuring me that its super true, THEN i believe.
beforehand, i was quite lag in news because im having many tests and projects going on recently. i ONLY know that Afghanistan got terrorism associated wit korea.

The group of South Korean Christians pose for a memorial photo
before leaving for Afghanistan

this time, its way too disastrous.
one young pastors and some other volunteers are already dead.
T.T

nevertheless, everything is in control
we can only pray for the best
God is the author of peace
Jesus the prince of peace :)
a river of divine protection will flow!

2007-07-30T11:56:00.000-07:00

hello! im in sch now =)

ive removed my tagboard.
YEAH YEAH;
when i set up my blog initially, i just wan to make it a personal one, and maybe for frens. i DID NOT wan this blog to have so much "exposure". that many ppl i didnt know came to tag me, be it good /bad.

it used to be like this:
good comments, day brightened up.
bad comments, ponder whole day.

to only some time ago when i feel nothing abt comments.
HAHA. yeah, its a good thing man.
but too, i grew lazy to reply tags ):

im not sure if its a good thing/bad thing, but through this blog, i gotta know a couple of new frens who're bloggers too. (they're all ard our age okay!)

To my blog-lovers:
thank you for reading and always tagging! :D
much appreciated;
and though tagboard removed, do come back still, LOVES

To my ~~blog-haters~~:
im not removing my tagboard for your sake (:
and maybe you wan me to remove my entire blog
well, FAT HOPE! :)

2007-07-29T22:04:00.000-07:00

yeah yeah yo hoo!
ive changed my blogskin, as i promised (;
on the happy day, 27072007!
(its all two, zero &seven! :D:D)

HAPPY TENTH MONTH BABY!
HAPPY TENTH MONTH BABY!
HAPPY TENTH MONTH BABY!

the deliverance svc is so good!
how more thankful can we be when you freed us?

the happy souls together!

many smiles when i thought of her :):)

congrats wentao for winning the title of Ms Hey Gorgeous of NYP :D:D hoooo~ cheryl, sabby and me made pretty banners for her in like an hour? used those super luminous cardboard! DIE. cfm go on teevee again! ): NOT GOOD!

photoshopped A LOT! its the poster we printed for her (:
that BEN YEO is a real joker! guess wad?
he said, "我的国宝在哪里？啊！看到了！国宝在看什么？国宝！不要躲 leh!"
FAINT CAN? i think a lot ppl staring at me. he even disclosed that i spent all $800! seriously, i almost fainted! RAR! but still, okay bah. at least he still rem got 国宝! HAHA. seriously, 国宝 is inside joke.

at the end of it, due to time constraint, i didnt take any photos wit wentao! cos i was already late for date! (boyfren waited for 3hrs?) another reason is that, maybe i really lost mood to stay for another second to face someone else.

how much more hurts can a girlfren get?
TO HER:
i always thought u're one of my love in girlfrens
and that you're someone close to me whom i can confide in.
yet, i never thought you'll think so of me
i was utterly disappointed.
no, im not angry, just disappointed.

how could you think that i wanna fight wit you in everything?
no i didnt wan to win you in anything.
studies relationship frenship, not a single area.

when u're quiet, i felt uneasy and worried
when u appear down, i just wanna do some card for you to cheer u up
and when you walk fast, i speed up my pace to walk beside you
never will i think that you walk fast to get away frm me.
i just wan to be your good girlfren
yet you thought the otherwise.

seriously, you're over-sensitive.
and your worries means disappointment to me.

dont worry now. drift away all you want,
i wont hold you back. i wont tag along.
if thats all that you want.
goodbye girlfren,
you've changed too much that we cant comprehend.
just be happy always, since you chose this.

sidetracking, my hard disk was infected wit TROJAN HORSE!
and manymany funny virus. HMPF. must be one of those lousy school com lab in S443! MUST BE! its irritating to go into a class w/o your "regular" com to use. worst still, the rest of the com are so vulnerable to virus. sad thing.

weiloon turned one big round to say im not tall.
thanks for making that VERY BIG EFFORT -.-

LoooN says: eh. i ask u one question
LoooN says: which mountain is the tallest mountain?
♥SHAN 珊[270906] says: mountain? dont know!
LoooN says: mount everest u dunoe?
♥SHAN 珊[270906] says: chey! i thought wad.
LoooN says: the shortest mountain leh?
♥SHAN 珊[270906] says: ice mountain!
LoooN says: no. u!
LoooN says: weishan. u also one mountain
♥SHAN 珊[270906] says: IDOIT.

LASTLY, im still struggling wit ICT.
and HELLO! WHERE'S DWIGHT?! RAR!

2007-07-26T00:16:00.000-07:00

♥ everybody know that its no combo

今晚不用睡了啦！
common test and exams are queuing up already
and so near that it'll be their turn next week!
yet my projects haven even finish!
i feel so ~~trapped~~.

sigh.
im craving for milky prata at this hour ):

很讨厌! 这世界好不公平!
如果要一一指正，恐怕需要数十年；
但也忍了下来。
就因为他们比我们需要他们来得多
所以，也就忍了下来。

2007-07-24T00:47:00.000-07:00

i love JESSIE so much

happy is the philanthropist!
happy, so happy. oh so very happy!
feels like i found myself
:D
yea, feels like.
been smiling a lot but i haven smile to myself for months!
RAR. no life ):
but being happy is so easy can!
just have to cancel your ~~hates~~ &release em
which many failed to
being happy is sucha easy thing :D

so full of smiles till i cant contain anymore :D:D

JUST HAPPY.
wad colour is today? its rainbow.

btw; im getting my fringe back x)
FRINGE! you're on the right track!

♥ let your heart do all the talking

OH. this part, i must blog.
its the FIRST TIME that im not affected by anyone who criticizes me on my blog! never will i again (: i mean it! im not even single bit affected by that 'me' on my tagboard. :D OWNING! so weishan used to be so mindful of wad people thinks. yes; and she struggles wit bad comments.

but aft pst kong taught SOTM, many reflections i did to myself, including those wrongs i did to others. its a real bad struggle. start to really understand about walking the walk, and not only talking the talk.

instantly, mean words doesnt hurt anymore.
hello now, im saying;
I confidently know where i stand in His eyes.
its enough.
its more than enough.
well, another part of me grew up
:D yeah yo.

2007-07-23T12:59:00.000-07:00

in firewall lab right now (:
im troubled. yes i am, very.

i think Jo's back frm honeymoon already. i really need her to pray for me. i believe that she is a lot sharper in the spirit; and that i can trust her.

im motivated to go for overseas for my P6.
yet, sth's pulling me back. yes, my flesh.
1) might have to travel ALONE - gotta be super independent!
2) might have to sleep in a room ALONE ):
2) my laundry HOW?
3) alone thing. why? cos i'll have to celebrate many events w/o my family &frens. my birthday, christmas, new year countdown and chinese new year! (for chinese new year, i can have the chance to "bian pow"!)

anw, its just a try (:

most importantly, i needa know one thing.
Father, is this my calling?

2007-07-22T22:45:00.000-07:00

♥ i love Singapore! :D yet not so much after 7% gst.

ytd morning was 50% tragedy.
cg planned to go sentosa on sat morning &all late -.- no one soul was punctual. i was one of the earliest ones. so bad! to add on, the sky seems heavy. as if at any moment, raindrops will fall. so caiping, boyfren &me went ahead to vivo &shop ard. anw, i didnt bring my cam that day ): mum brought it out.

jasmine, shireen &joshua came subsequently. i bought lotsa stuffs! weets! two tops frm pull &bear, one friends forever necklace (shireen got the other half of mine!). also, many many birthday presents. total damage: $130+ (close two eyes)

the necklaces frm diva (:

aft that, we went on to Carl's Junior for lunch.
fellowship was happy thing. at least, i feel that way.

tried their cheesecake for the first time, nice! x)

HAHAHA. cute!

mum went for NDP preview ytd! she called me ard afternoon and asked if boyfren and me wanna go together em. i rejected w/o hestation. told her im going svc. she got FIVE tickets can! power~ Thank God i chose svc :D power of God was so strong! well, she commented its AWESOME. patriotic me is looking forward to this year's NDP. know wad? my aunt says she might be able to get 4 tickets for me!! HMM. who shall i get along?

gladys is in NDP EVERY year. i bet she loves this year especially. talking abt this girl, i miss her! shes one of those girls that you can share secrets wit (:
shown!

yeah. actually theres too much to blog abt CODE RED. next week i'll blog. so sorry for so many postpones!

help! tmr's the last day of application! shld i go for overseas attachment anot? its half a year ALONE working for HP man! VEXED.

2007-07-19T08:31:00.000-07:00

GOOD MORNING!
freak tired now.
year three year three no wonder its called YEAR THREE.
it makes students freak worn out.

FOR THIS WEEK,
I JUST HAD ALL THESE:
Mon: Firewall Practical Lab Demo
Tues: Security E-Assessment, Comm Skills E-assessment
Wed: Networking Practical Test (ans lecturer's qns)

IM LEFT WITH THESE:
1) Broadband e-quiz. on thursday. (today)
its 10% can! thank God its open book! but surely (according to Mr Simon's PATTERN) he'll set those qns in a way that at least 30% of the qns we do cant be found in those lecture notes.
2) ICT ~~MINI~~ Project not done. by friday.
settling the file error problem is already a darn big headache. sigh.
3) ICT Presentation! on friday.
if we cant come out wit project details, how we do presentations?

its a daily struggle
coffee daily. specs daily. shag daily. sleepy daily.
certainly not working out, im so tired.
yet im so hungry for Your touch;

dwight's going home frm sch now. to bring his labtop for our projects. no matter wad, im going CG today. i need double portion of anointing. anointing is all i ask for right now!

sidetrack. im so determined to pick up new programming language: Widget Tags for HTML. this Widget Tags seems very interesting :) i just have to cope myself in my room for a couple of days after my P5.

im vexed. overseas attachment? yes/no?

2007-07-18T00:11:00.000-07:00

OH HOOOOLALA
i e-spreed again. the dealer was quick to reply this time. guess wad? my items will come in 2-3 weeks frm taiwan; which means i can have many new bags soon! so excited can. finaaaaaally. my three new bags seems to be waving frm far~ hee will blog all brand-news when come in!

oh. Thank God i didnt forget my payments. else, the dealers will strike off my orders mercilessly!

♥ like rainbow chocolate rice, you sprinked your love all over
hello classmates :)
-good hair day!

haha. hahaha. ha!

MARCUS. 没有爱过 (inside joke) HAHA!

this gay kept moving his head backwards so that his face will look smaller.
he succeed.

say hello to my pretty malay classmates! siti's not there though.

wei loooooooooooooon!
he's faithful to BAILEI's clan &he constantly recuit power rangers!

my childhood fave! heartsheartsHEARTS!

in lecture. though kamal doesnt really likes it, he gladly finishes all!
our mister foodie :) so delighted.

kim's admirer gave her this. SO NICE. too bad, she doesnt appreciates! only one in a thousand guy do such things HOR! kamal "promised" to make one for me. lets see if he rems. :)

sorry for not blogging recently. my yr 3 projects are killing me.
seems like theres test everyday, new e-quiz task new test new assignments new project requirements BLAH.

theres so many to blog yet no time. HMM. yeah. will feed this blog wit many many photos soon!

i read xiaxue's blog. well, ruthless post abt the top 7 disgusting bloggers in Singapore. hmm. steven lim shld just quit claiming he's the most handsome guy in the world. FAINT can! lol.

OKAYOKAY! i'll blog abt CODE RED tmr (:
stay tuned frens! :D

2007-07-13T00:14:00.000-07:00

♥You don't love a woman because she is beautiful,
she is beautiful because you love her.

the above quote not only works for lovers, but friends too :)

ive been thinking for a very long time;
yet, cant make one decision out of these two tees.
HMM

BUY EARTH'S ONE! :D

talking abt saving earth....

lets do our part (:
i think these environmental bags are pretty cool;
they're all designers style.
(of course not as pretty as those that you're carrying)
visit envirosax
livejournal's sgspree is having this spree right now
buy one! its only ten dollars!
if you dont have a lifejournal acc or wad &wanna buy,
i can help :)

im thinking of this one, HEMP.

Cultivated in China as early as 4000 BC, the hemp plant produces the strongest natural fibre known. Hemp fabric is three times stronger than cotton fabric of the same weight. With no known insect enemies and a high resistance to disease, there is no need to use harmful pesticides in cultivation.
A strong eco-friendly alternative.

okay! this one! :D

i skipped mobile lecture. went to boyfren's hse to do my project.
and im going to get crazy soon!
endless projects. strangling me. stressed. easily fed up. poor frens. poorer boyfren. yet i wont break down. not that weak OKAY! weishan; jiayoujiayouJIAYOU heh!

i was in the middle of the road taking this photo -.-
sabby's crossing the road.

this photo is so me! hearts;

when things go black and white,
he's the one who never fails to pick up those color crayons.

its BandzOut tmr (: painted nails pretty.
red hot toenails; hot pink fingernails!
hope they'll take pride in their event tmr;
*no more blackouts please!

my tagboard is making me laugh madly. so funny!
okayokay; still, thanks for all the tags, be it good or bad.

ive completed my new blogskin a week back :D
all excited to post it up!
im thinking of removing my tagboard &place in comment tags below entries.
im waiting to post it on 270707 ♥

2007-07-09T09:43:00.000-07:00

the printing room at blk L lvl 5 is SO NOISY right now
the girl sitting in front of me is talking SO LOUD
her team mates too
irritating
not considerate at all

2007-07-08T09:00:00.000-07:00

buah! so my XD-card is not spoil lah! its just MEMORY-FULL. one gig, full. i was that retard to believe that i dumbly scratched the sensitive case of the XD. that explains why i dont bring my rasberry ard recently.
laugh, sophia. i know you will.
haha!

the triple 7 ♥
070707- perhaps the most impt day in their lifes (:

the invitation
its just a card, printed on two sides. yet, beautifully artistic!
yeah, boyfren &me are warmly invited!
(thank God for this great leader &her husband)

woke up at 7plus. yeah, but was on phone wit some urgent stuffs.
and at 9pm, bestie called.
prisca: shan!! where're you now?
me: im in bed. yawn.
prisca: HUR! STILL IN BED? you know wad time already?! we need to be there by 10.30!
me: err. ya.... okayokay. i go prepare now.
prisca: you better faster! later still must change, make-up blah. i go your hse find you wan?
me: anything lor. you have time you can come.
prisca: you har, sigh. i come now.
me: okaykaykaeeeeeeeee. i go prepare okay? love!
*hang phone.

so she dragged dorina along. when i became a lil more conscious, i told her to wait at mac than come my hse. HAHA. my room is currently too messy for any guest.

yippy! theres actually wind, but only my hair's messy,
bestie still complains that i was too tall even sitting down. haha
-.-

fwoah! girly powers =)
sorry for my long fingers!

prisca's vintage heals, my jewel heals, dorina's classy heals!
im the only one w/o nail polish; no time for that. :s
(if you notice, ive a bruise mark on my ankle top. SIGH. thats the mark of POS. rem i mentioned i keep injuring myself? yeah. thats a small regret of not taking good care. still, thank God for vitamin E creams (: they helps! )

the super-look-like-dorigo dorina!
:)

now, bestie &her. hehe

we struggled our way to taxi stand, &i counted. we're waiting for the 8th cab! FAINT. aft half an hr, we're still waiting for the 8th cab! super devestated. so we chose walked back to bus-stop in the end. well, thank God. on the way back, i suggested to risk another taxi stand. fwoah. lucky enough, in less than 15mins, we're on cab :D

when we reach, matrimony already ended. sadded.
so we proceeded to the balcony at lvl 5 for refreshments.
thank God! i managed to see Jo in the gown :)

yeah. the dress michelle chia wore.
oh. im wit sophia the Greek goddess! haha

girls frm E315! (erm. i USED to be. haha)

new cg ladies: caiping, jasmine, me, carolyn, carissa.
too bad shireen's not here!

one more shot! :D

for a moment, i gone missing. prisca, carolyn &the rest were looking for me. guess where did i go?

YEAH! sophia's idea for toilet breakout!
sera was pulled along too. so the three of us.... acted idoit in toilet. thank God for self-timers (: know what? we're hiding inside maternity room (is that what ppl call?) taking photos &beside us is the toilet -.- IN CONCLUSION, we're taking photos when people are doing their small business. so wrong!

beautiful toilet in our JW church.
soph's actually very slim but i think the big fan on the ground blew her skirt fluffy.
we got a lot of toilet photos, but its all in sophia's cam.
so when i get em, i'll blog up those photos :D

she loves these dry ice?
i think she loves this photo more!

aft that, we helped to shift back chairs in the hall.
despite great happy events, we must not forget that we're still servants of God!

then, jasmine, carolyn, caiping &me went to bugis to buy mark his graduation present. he's now a NUS grad okay! haha. bought him a tee (: long story, but gist of it: i got myself a necklace. :D look at photos during dinner, i had my necklace on! nice?

just 5 mins before the svc, i had a great shock. i learnt frm carolyn that not everyone are invited for the dinner! i was super shocked. :X felt bad for a minute. but to think, Jo must had made a very had decision too. because if she were to invite whole zone for her wedding dinner, it'ld be at a super great expense. still, was very glad that boyfren &me were invited. gave her a thick red packet :D

the wedding dinner was at a teochew seafood restaurant in town, centerpoint. Jo was very considerate. she catered a bus for us frm expo to town. we left the svc early, at ard 7pm, we left.

saw lotsa extinguish guest there. there're pastors, great bro&sis in church, family members of both sides etc. due to my accidental clumsiness, i spilled a cup of red wine on my white skirt! SLAPS! and the whole table of ppl were thinking of ways to help. (thanks) i heard, can soak in cold water then blah blah. manymany ways! yet aft sharing, all NOT SURE because nevcer try before. haha
//(T.T)\\

me: theo! can you ask your mum how to settle clothes stained wit red wine now?
theo: okayokay. relax. i msg her now.
two minutes later, she replied,"gone case. unless its white. if not can throw."
me: white? she mean white wine? HUR?! my dress not cheap okay! help~~~
theo: okayokay. relax. i ask her again.
two minutes later, she replied,"if the clothes is stained wit red wine, can soak whole thing in bleah. if its other color of clothes, gone case."
theo: see this msg, relax. u very lucky, wear white.
me: phew. just lost 20,000 of cells.

its the first time that me &boyfren attend a wedding dinner together!
(i'll remember this day (:)
*see my necklace! geeheeee.

hello table twenty-nine! :D
starting frm top left all the way to bottom right:
weijie, foster, fabian, maoshen,
lawrence, rickson, carolyn, caiping, weishan, theodore!

aft the dinner, boyfren sent me home by cab. thanks!

// for now, im struggling wit presentation slides. yawn.

oh yeah. one more thing!
we needa save the earth yeah yo!
do our part! save electricity &resources!!
yes. everyone's saying 666 might be on the way.
SO WHAT? fret not.
we just need to do our best, God will do the rest.
dont forget, we're living in His grace right now!
so all the more must we OUTREACH.

when i opened my eyes, i still see daylight.
i could never be more thankful to You
for You've given me grace for another day here,
i'll rejoice &filful Your call in this day!
i know, im called.

2007-07-06T16:05:00.000-07:00

♥ if time were like clocks. spine the notch, get back to happy times.

million tons of projects out to murder me
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!

veryvery stress can can can CAN?
stoning mood every minute.

ict project management ~~MINI~~ project
ict project management ~~MINI~~ project
ict project management ~~MINI~~ project
ict project management ~~MINI~~ project
ict project management ~~MINI~~ project

RAR HAR HAR HO!
Expecto Petronum!
yeah. projects done in twinkle of eye! :D
i told benjamin happily abt this brilliant idea.
he replied wit diao look,"you got wand meh? get tree branch arh?"
sadded.
yeah, i thinked too much.

OR MAYBE, if kipnapping aint a crime in spore, i'll kidnap my lecturer &hide him somewhere until i finish those reports wit ruthless requirements. i think my classmates would each give me a hug. (:
sigh. if only if only.
still, too bad that he dont receive bribes.
i think he'll turn into a millionaire in less than 10 years if he helps students to do their report. for each report, $100 bucks.

i dont know why. i think im suffering frm Hexakosioihexekontahexaphobia. sigh. i need an angel to speak to me. please guide me, God. &when the day comes, i'll armour myself to fight the fight.

2007-06-30T23:06:00.000-07:00

tired out recently.
happy birthday eileen (:

lotsa things to blog abt!
i'll blog abt code red veryvery soon
:D yea; many bugging me blog abt it
of course I WILL but not too soon
else, many inside jokes &retardedness revealed too soon!
HAHA :p

OKAY. face the music.
lalalalalalalaaaalalaaalalala~~~~~
HEY GORGEOUS
by channel U.
(i'll make not explanation to why im inside)
but well, people, vote for the correct people!! i see there're some veryvery pretty ones. esp those wit big bright eyes, big smile etc. OH. i see some frm foreign bodies, model-wannbes, actress-lookalikes &they're real belles! (: i do think those babes own more rights to become the "flower" of NYP w/o guilt (: so well, support wisely.

yesyes. also, there're a lot of prettier babes in NYP who haven been norminated. sigh. wasted. there're such beauties.

he tangled his last finger wit his daughter
&promise not to smoke again.
♥ daddy, i love you.

2007-06-27T12:14:00.000-07:00

can i have peace peace peaceee?

if simple peace you cant give then get lost. dont come to my blog.
its MY blog hello!
but i feel like i cant blog very personal feelings here.
cos ugly ppl comes here &qn/give ___ comments.

God gave everyone a brain, including YOU.
so use it.

♥ when you cry cause it hurts, it doesn't mean that you're not heard, but because aloud in heaven angels cry with you.

troubled.

dad got admitted to hospital ):
thank God he's feeling better. its right-lung infection.
sigh.
when to visit him ytd night.
i think the needle's thick, not exaggerating. even boyfren thinks so too.
but luckily the nurse in charge of my dad is patient &good (:
2litres of oxygen given every 6hrs or wad
it pains me to see my own dad in such condition
though mum did not say, i know it aches her
she didnt sleep well last night, so did i.
pray for my family please. thanks people.

tmr's ict common test. 30% of value.
hope i'll strike 25% of it. which means i got to score an A.
im going to mug hard now.

today's our ninth month (: i love you boyfren.
yet we dont have much time to spend tog today
but well, God's gonna work things out for me!
i'll just have to see wad i can do then.

yeah. im goin for PM tmr. of course.
// i need to pray most now.

&OH. i still have some club work to do.
haven order stuffs yet. faint-.

now SEE. ive enough things to bother.
i know some meant well
but please dont call me &wish me good luck in wad competition.
i really THANK YOU for that.
i just need short prayers
else simple encouragement.

2007-06-26T11:04:00.000-07:00

things in life got random
&some things i'll rather skip than blog.
♥ i know exactly who i am. its enough (:

REPLYING TAGS

passerby: rubbish.
jez: haha, okay okaaaay, taken out! fren. sleeep more. later when we meet dont yawn hur! :D
gene lim: :D! ive just linked u too.
theo: one more day (: cant imagine u guys in china! haha
jiawen: i know i know. -.- she blog right? OKAY. next time i'll get one for you!
joyce: link you le! yeah ;) be happy! btw, blog more happy stuffs sweets :D
jewel: HEHS; ive linked you! (: when did u link me hur? so fast!
priscaa.: PRISCAAAAAAAAAAA!
zoe: yeah. can see (: ive tagged you too girl! goin for jo's wedding?
regina: (:(:
CAMEY: nah. quite a lot of things recently, dont think can meet u girls up so fast. ):
dawn: YEA YEAH. i'll make sure! u wait &see!
gladys: faints* girl, sorry, but i haven forgot to go out wit you!
Dorii: okay okaay thanks son! btw, dont keep voting hur! pls pls (: thanks.
SOPH: gaaaaa! ive link you. oh btw, can u help me remind joshua to bring the voucher on thurs? (: in case i forget. haha

2007-06-25T15:28:00.000-07:00

love this hunk!
in front of my church (ard 10,000 ppl present that day) &millions over the world (live broadcast over teevee), he proposed to his girlfren, Vivi, wit this song (:
of course, under pressure, she agreed! hearts :D
i was there too, i teared, so sweet.
sweet till u dont know that u're smiling to yourself! HAHA :D
thats my very first time seeing ppl propose;
heart melt experience!

his face looks familiar but many dont know he's name..
he's frm taiwan, 刘畊宏, liu geng hong! he acted in initial-d remember now? HAHA!

刘畊宏 - 幸福的距离
刘畊宏2007全创作专辑

窗外开始下起毛毛雨
云遮住了星星
夜深了还没有睡意
翻来覆去的想你
时钟滴答滴答的声音
像在说我爱你
转过2点3点到6点
恨不得快点见到你
幸福的距离就算万公里
在你眼里有我想要勇气
从南极飞到北极南京到北京
你的笑胜过那些美景
我们勾勾手就一言为定
我会傻傻的好好的爱你
你的名加我的姓
永远在一起
拥抱多过千言万语

窗外开始下起毛毛雨
云遮住了星星
夜深了还没有睡意
翻来覆去的想你
时钟滴答滴答的声音
像在说我爱你
转过2点3点到6点
恨不得快点见到你
幸福的距离就算万公里
在你眼里有我想要勇气
从南极飞到北极南京到北京
你的笑胜过那些美景
我们勾勾手就一言为定
我会傻傻的好好的爱你
你的名加我的姓
永远在一起
幸福的距离就算万公里
在你眼里有我想要勇气
从南极飞到北极南京到北京
你的笑胜过那些美景
我们勾勾手就一言为定
我会傻傻的好好的爱你
你的名加我的姓
永远在一起

enough!
time to study (:

2007-06-25T12:36:00.000-07:00

♥ if this world makes me crazy &ive taken all i can bear,
i'll givea loud scream to the first person who calls me.

good weather today; at least not like ytd.
pray for my dad. TY. he's not feeling well since ytd ):
&it pains a daughter to see her dad sick.
he's on MC &i hope i can really take care of him these two days.

boyfren have been talking to me abt PEOPLE CHANGE.
its frm one of our frens to him.
cant help but wonder, is it really because people change?
or is it because another has no more value for u to use?

ict exam's on thurs. im still not well-prepared. sigh.
my mugging mood went on a helicopter & flew over to romans.

jessie &me promised to meet up tmr to mug;
yet, credibility close to zero. haha.
(i think its taken 2years ago already. HAHAHA)
we always end up chatting non-stop
then we have to force ourselves to sit at different table at mac -.-
seriously, jessie &me can talk abt everything,
even most personal stuff.

[we just left sth we haven do. thats wad cheryl lim &me did! HAHA]

a pure heart, thats what i long for.
a heart that follows hard after Thee;
a pure heart, thats what i long for.
a heart that follows hard after Thee.

a heart that hides Your Word
so that sin will not come in.
a heart thats undivided
but one You rule and reign;
a heart that beats compassion,
that pleases You my LORD,
a sweet aroma of worship
that rises to Your throne.

the ten commandments i will obey,
not because i have to.
but because i love You, i chose to.

♥ and He's the only One who can turn situations ard.

next thing. ive got influenced; negativity.
kill me because of it, please.
oh how much people have i criticized instead of edify?
this brokendown world, whose tongues are all like serpents
how much have they hurt knowingly?
why did they speak to bring people down?
no i cant dwell in these, its eating people up
im to build up, not tear down.
help me, God.

because when He suffers upon pontius pilate,
He cried out, "Abba, forgive em for they do not know what they're doing!"
Thank You.

2007-06-22T12:10:00.000-07:00

SCREWED
i spent so much effort,
only to find out that
i did my report on the wrong topic
im FED UP now.
very irritated;

promised to meet may, xiao wei, AO etc for shopping
now i cant meet anyone
i can jolly-well stay at home and mug report.
T.T

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!
blame my cock-eyes

2007-06-21T23:19:00.000-07:00

//seen enough tasted enough
friends are easy to gain
when u place certain trust into em
&they betrayed you ruthlessly
friendship breaks &it hurts

at this time
you can forgive
&even earn back the friendship
wait
but the trust is no longer there
&it might never grow again
because they rooted trust completely
by betraying you the previous time

i dont need another friends forever.
i dont need another best friend who says ilu.
i just want a true friend.
someone reliable &hot.
like God.

2007-06-20T23:14:00.000-07:00

oh no oh no! (jumping on hot pan*)
just when i thought hols are free &easy.. ARGH.
i cld chew off my keyboard! :(

today met up wit dwight for ict.
STUPID MODULE. -.-
marcus &the rest cldnt start on proj bcos they dont have the software.
today, WE HAVE MICROSOFT PROJECT 2003! HOORAY! we have we have we haveeee!! x) but we dont know how to use! not even the basic functions, i say.
dwight &me were scratching heads for close to an hr before EXPLORING this software.
SIGH//
well, in poly, u dont need the lecturer to tell u to pay attention,
because they know u'll have your share of price to pay.

aft all stupid struggles, we surrendered to microsoft proj. we used microsoft words instead. i know the lecturer wld NOT accept. but well, better than nothing. be glad you've gt something to mark! frm that moment, i labeled both of us as NOOBS. sad thing.

another bad news frm wei loon. he says simon's report to be submitted by friday. HELLO? i haven touch a nut! yes, im doin it NOW while blogging. bored-. computer stuffs are robots. no brains, yet so many wires to mug :(

CAREless.

ard three, boyfren &ao acc me to mrt, met mum for town.
shopping wit mum is a happy thing.
num one, mum pays (:
num two, i feel comfy wit mum (:

tmr's BandzOut audition. yet i wonder the committee's any excited anot. sigh. i just rem how excited are we for our own events. every single step we take, we capture em down in photos, so they'll be locked as memories// how i wish every batch wld take pride in events.

REPLYING TAGS

Shireen: babe! love ya blog too :D yours also have many many photos!
Dorii: ya! how come you didnt come?
laytin: i'll link you soon babe! :D take care*
anon: thanks anw. (: i'll. u too.
may: okaay! soon soon! i'll link you (: YEAH. shopping!!
theo: you want those photos, youve got it! :D
aluice: haha. sorry babe. u're also busy too! i'll find time for u okay, sweets!
dawn: GIRL! i'll find you the next time i go sch! :D promise!
ao: i'll link you soon
peifen: yeah pretty! thanks (: you looked like you enjoy your days too!
j-c-mobile: i will (:
SOPH: SOPHY SOPHY SOPHY!! u can pass to your boyfren then ask him to pass me (: i think i see him more than i see you! haha. can u pls gimme ur link again?

2007-06-19T15:29:00.000-07:00

designed a new blogskin! (:

boyfren says its very nice; HEHS
was thinking of changing my URL.
its like so long ):
undesirable-addictions.blogspot.com
i wan a very TAN WEISHAN kinda URL.
thinking. still thinking.

went Vila'ge wit chc-nypian ytd
:D:D

oh, prisca's here too! LOVES.

im goin to blog abt some hearts* food only :D

tomato seafood baked-rice
(boyfren says he can cook the same or even better! lets see.)

ROSTI (: prisca's must-order.

pork knuckles!
(my old-time fave, haha)

see the close-up!
it basically pork fats wit crispy thick skin. yum :D
fed fang a mouth of fats &she scaremed.
didnt know shes HALAL. :s
so funny.

had deserts too.
crepes are ice-cream frenly food.
:)

shared the food. nice (:

that night, basil's drunk.
im veryvery sure he's drunk cos he did many stupid things that left us speechless.HAHA.
heard that buddy drank more than basil.
basil, BUCK UP!

played games lyk polar bear; its seriously darn HIGH can.
i was the first to get killed ):
THANKS RACH &PRISCA HUR!
haha
boyfren kept laughing &laughing.

2007-06-17T22:32:00.000-07:00

♥ when you're happy and you know you clap your hands!

WHAT A DAY yesterday!
yeah EXCOS, dont spree off your cash hur!! :D:D

im in foul mood ytd. sorry ppl. guess only some know why.
actually im feeling bad physically
(in super pain state)
plus the delays were crazy.

until i get all the photos then i'll blog ytd (:
ive already sent wad's on my cam for nicky to compile.

anw, EXCOS! as long as our hearts are together,
we can do all things! :D

-Thank You Jesus for bringing me through yesterday.

HAPPY FATHERS DAY! :D
(dad have been the main focus of this month! hearts)
some miscomm. but well, family went for claypot dinner;
sambal prawns in claypot, mixed pork soup in claypot etc.

看了他博克的一则，我哭了。也明白了。
原来，成经在我印像里的他，真的存在过。
他也有脆弱的时候。。他也有情绪。。
但。以前的我们到底怎么了？
我们最后进戏院前不是说好了；
不管结果怎么样，我们还是好同学，好朋友吗？
我们又为了什么讨厌对方？
为什么把对方弄得满身伤痕？
还是当初你把话说的太美，来哄我？

今天的我们，见面像陌身人，转身就自走。。
感谢老天，让我有机会遇上现在的他。
每天都是快乐的。
// 你也一定要找到自己的幸福。祝福你。

*i'll reply all tags tmr.. apologies for delays
i went to the doctor just now to get medicines
now im super tired again
nights sweethearts;

2007-06-15T23:53:00.000-07:00

♥ soulmates? one like him is enough.

sick
shabby
NEOS conference
clarke quay
games
screams
sharing
giving
hip hop
bye-byes
one photo

He's healing me right now
Thank You;

2007-06-14T21:40:00.000-07:00

went back to sch ytd
i only did one thing
play PAYDAY wit merv, kimo &boyfren.
but this game darn high can :D!

today went to the national library at bugis there
together wit the EXCOS
HAHAHA
(reason cant be revealed YET.)

HAPPY HAPPY BIRTHDAY

to the best dad!
(wit many many giant hugs!)

at night, family invited boyfren to come over my place for dinner.
of course, he came (:
both of us shared a leather bag for dad :D:D
we had cereal prawn, chilli crabs, sambal sweet potato leaves, steam fish
at a nearby foodcourt.
food's good.
YEAH. were very happy.

there only 3 photos to blog for now.

four idoits makes good frens (:

three dumbos makes up brotherhood.

unwrap two sweets, you get a couple.

ive been thinking for the past few wks to change my blog name. YET, i cant think of a short &sweet one. sth very TANWEISHAN. anyone can heeeelp?

2007-06-12T14:05:00.000-07:00

♥ since three, momma taught me, big girls dont cry.

i need to be rich.

OH PLEASE OH PLEASE.
moneyMONEY come come!!
your heart feels the same way as pockets.
when your pockets's empty, you WILL feel empty!

before i left house ytd , mum fed me wit red dragon fruit.

see how this fruit stain the plastic bag?
&well, it dyed my lips thick hot purple.

kbox-ed wit good old primary sch mates at cine.

waiseen,huiwen,justin.

the actually-first photo.

their actually-first photo.

no. we never drink. but we look lyk drunkards here ):"

munch &refill &munch &refill..

OH OH.. GRABS! thats my hand :s

our mocktails;

CHEERIOS*

their posture symbolizes ducks. HAHAHAHA
quack!

roar more than sing?
but justin certainly scream more than he sing! LOL

yay. crazy as we might be :D

aft that, boyfren came town to meet me (:
bought a pair of blue checkered sandals, walked ard.

hmm. IF i have that $50 NUM bag voucher, im going to buy a bag frm there :D
i already spotted wad i want!
but if i cant get the voucher, i'll rather randomly buy three $50 bags frm town.
hehehohaha!

that day at gleneagles. goodness. i look so pale that i wish i cld have a free night stay over there with doctors attending to me. whats wrong wit me hur. not enough sleep?

anway,
im off to prepare to meet dwight for ICT proj.
meeting him at causeway pt. yawns. work makes me sleepy.

REPLYING TAGS

passer-by: thanks! (: visit here often;
爱人: thanks boyfren. its so pleasing to my eyes (: HEHE love
Dorii: thanks boy. yeah yeah. but im not weak. just that i can
mallyyy: GIRL! yaya. that day im not feelin well. maybe cos of weather. hmm. oh bad. u have to fyp even in holidays! AWW, but soon its our turn!
CiN: GIRL! thanks. i went gleneagles already. btw, the photo album size is seriously toooooo big. how to send u guys neh? BIG BIG PROB!!
jaimie*: okayokay. i know GSS is here. but money's not here yet! frown.
lish`: COUSIN! i blogged abt you yeah. haha
Dorina: still the pretty daughter! :D:D
dawn: you take more care too. i think i might be able to meet u up. OKAY. this time's real. i'll go your hse bake cake. drag chermaine along.
priscaa.: yes yes! screams. bestie, youve got nver ending list of eye-candies hur!
buddy: BUDDY. can gimme your link AGAIN? thankyou thankyou!!

2007-06-10T23:04:00.000-07:00

HOLIDAYS
can be so intimidating.

because theres endless meet-ups &projects to be done,
worse than sch days.
oh. excuses also dont work during holidays. how bad?

JOHANNES. this boy is very cute &hyperactive &fun &irritating.
he's my student.

i love to pinch his cheeks!

next up,
VOICEOUT06/07

before the event, boyfren n me went bishan to get cheryl her bdae present (:
and we went pastamania for heavy lunch.
note: we paid more to upsize our pasta &baked rice! :D yums

befoe the event starts, we already heated out seats
happy birthday cheryl! (:
// YOU'RE NINETEEN!! hope you like the present.
if u see this post, rem, i haven forget ur belated card; WINKS.
gimme time to get a nice one!!

kelvin &tobias; my two S.I.T club juniors.
ERR. song lyrics sounds kinda gay for em, but well, praise em for courage (:
i didnt take other photos DURING the event.
LOL

but i like that opera lady, its so good lah! macham im in esplanade.
HAHAHA

HELLO PRETTY MALLY! :D
she never fails to show off her bright smile!

REBECCA!! one of my favourites in poly life.
//im sorry girl for not celebrating ur bdae.
i'll make it up someday in this hols alright? love u many!

ao n geneveire won the first prize in grp catagory. CONGRATS! i know cheryl's happy, im happy too! solo category was a malay girl, shes good. =)

♥ amazing. life is filled with beautifuls.

******

EMERGE 07
glory to glory!

guess wad? this year, we had quite a lot of celebrities who came to our church and performed.
e.g. Project Superstar Darren &Diya. Liu Geng Hong. F.I.R. Miss HongKong &manymany more!
most happily, SUN's back! love.

Please read this part of my blog post.
u can miss any other parts, be it photos or words. but miss not this part.

many people says, "Sun survived in the entertainment because HER OWN CHURCH SUPPORT HER MAH!"
how true? INDEED, we support her. wouldnt your family support ur bro/sis if they were to launch albums? im very glad to say that theres absolutely no pressure coming frm our cell-grp leaders or pastors to buy her albums. (:

wait a minute. Sun didnt survive in entertainment just because our church supports her. peeps, lemme tell u sth, shes very famous frm out of spore.
HMM. how much taiwan, america & china love her? unbelievably A LOT.
i heard foolish remarks like,"aha. must be some underground entertainment thingy. fake sales only. must be the church secretly give record company money to bribe or wad." HOW SILLY! i tell u, if today our church have the money, we wld build God a larger hse! lemme post a qn. does the record company even bribe millions of people to go for her concert? &cheer, shout, scream, do large banners in overseas?

honestly, i used to dislike her. the way she talks, she sounds too kind, that makes her quite fake to me at a pt of time.

me: (on ipod)
lish: oh shyt. mine no more batt.
me: i share wit u then.
lish: eh, wads this song? so nice. a new singer?
me: no. its sun ho.
lish: huh? SI MEH? u cfm is her song?
me: it my ipod babe.
lish: i didnt know she can sing! (haha)
me: yaya. thats because u look at her face & judge that she cant sing right?
lish: haha. smart babe! send me send me.

how many ppl are lyk my cousin? haha. i used to be one.
but aft i got to know Sun slowly, oh my goodness. im touched. shes one of the very few pop singers who donated money & sent out workers to revamp & build orphanages, churches, schools, elderly homes etc etc. she changed the life of so many. ive seen many pop singers, not one ive seen, worked so much to change this world.

City Harvesters support Sun because we've seen wad she've done through all these years. and we acknowledge that she really got a good voice (: *Note, we DONT support her blindly just because shes pastor's wife.

im proud of you, Sun. (:

im wearing specs BECAUSE i have POS later in the night until very late.
i know i'll be tired. haha!

long time no see!! HUGS

adrina is so sweet
she made those chocolate tarts &gave me some :D

my ex cell-grp; full of young people!

steph shann tingting
we occupied the handicap toilet!

buddy buddy!!
how cool? he bleached his hair violet &green.
(no. i didnt PERM my hair. its plain messymessy!)

CYNTHIA!
she shakes butt &dance wit me at backstage whenever theres hype music! lovelove :D
my relax pill!

my smile is so not-my-smile.

GETTING CRAZY! hehehohaha!

NAH! proper one.

almost picture prefect!!
STUPID EUGENE!! rarr! haha :D

POWER TO THE PEOPLE~~
wayne &steph &me

RUFENG!! shes considered my bestie over there?
we often have heart-to-heart talks (:

:D:D:D:D:D:D

when im at backstage, im so frightened can!
hearing loud wails &cheers frm the crowd already made my knees go weak!
but when im on stage, I DANCED WELL! not a step wrong.
woah phew! Thank God!

thanks boyfren. he sent me home even though it darn late &he cabbed home.
we camwhore on train, theres not A LOT of ppl anw. HAHA
*thanks xiaoweiwei for the flower! so cute can :D hugs

random of today.
today aft pm, i met up wit boyfren to visit yanting at gleneagles. good that he's alive &kicking, crapped much. HAHA. well, aft that we wanted to go botanic gardens. but aft mins of discussions, we decided not to donate blood on such a fine afternoon. so we went to far east for dinner instead. wit nicky, cheryl &ao.

yawns. i'll blog abt day234 tmr.
i'll have a tough time ahead to blog. so many things can.

♥ Some hearts have the stars on their side, yes

2007-06-04T00:55:00.000-07:00

im having so much academictroubles this week!
datelines to meet. interviews to go.
but im happy because i know i can handle all.
because its not me, but Christ in me :D:D

i was crucified to the old me.
yet again, He planted such a great desire in me.
set me on fire once again, i wept badly,
i was torned &brokened into shatters.

all you need is emotions &yawns to tear.
but to wept, you need to feel that touch.

if He has installed a dream &a vision for me a yr ago,
this dream &vision will last till eternity.

2007-06-01T22:57:00.000-07:00

LORD. i made you my everything.
i know and i know that if i ever lose you,
i'll be left wit nothing.

im veryvery ill. been shouting n screeeeeaming wit my throat n diaphragm for POS ytd. im like a super dead log for the whole day. i was so sick that i cant drag myself out of clubrm for lab sessions! so i went home instead. boyfren sent me home (:

IN CONCLUSION; i missed lab sessions &napfa test &EMERGE!
sigh.

REPLYING TAGS
lucinda: okayokay. i dont look like malay. lol. gimme ur link. so i can link u (:
michelle: u're? nothing's wrong (: but the photos look too dark. guess we're in a corner thats why!
dawn: yesyes. im willing!
SaBbY: i skipped my napfa. cos im dying in the afternoon ):
jie: u're? yes. im attached.
JOLYN: linked! loves.
lish`: no im no longer into that matter now. no pt. hees;
charmaine: thanks babe. btw, weshld reeeeeally go for beancurd lah!
Dorii: okayokay. u n ur honey-coated lips! no wonder last time my daughter so into u! HAHA

arthur: UPDATED (: can see your life's colourful!
mallyyy: mallyyyy mallyyyy! great seeing u in sch. yet always no time to talk ): i read ur blog! AWW. history museum! how romantic; i bet my boy wld slp in one of those huge baskets if i were to bug him to go wit me. lol.
MISTER NG: mark your words! else i'll run wit my scissors! :P
li yu-: thanks! i guess i did a great job :D:D:D:D
priscaa.: dear. i like your earings. cos they're hand-made by YOU. hearts.
dwight: well. we have to see WHERE can play mahjong.

2007-05-31T01:31:00.000-07:00

♥♥ mood swings high. where did all the honeys went to?

EMERGE IS STARTING IN less than TWELVE HOURS TIME!
and before we all cld get ready,

new flow of anointing is already streaming frm heaven to flood everyone :):)

blog readers know wad im busy: POS right?
yes! and this is our training photos //
im lazy lazy to edit contrast etc. all these taken by cynthia's phone.

this is FUNNY. we hid at a corner to take photos..
sweating like pig.

pascale n me (:

aint it obvious that we're dancing w/o air-con?
haha!
Dale -> kungfu kid.

lastly, my buddy buddy!
he's TWENTY YEARS OLD.

well. tmr night is POS actual night. cheryl, xiaowei, nicky etc coming to support :D hearts. but im veryvery nervous. dance &cheer &shout in front of TEN THOUSAND ppl. not kidding. die die also got 500 ppl looking at you every moment. FAINTS. esp first row ppl, per person in der first row, sure got at least 1000 ppl looking.

anw; got a bit emo when taking train home just now. aft tmr, we wont be meeting up for dancing &cheerleading again! ): so i msged to quite a few ppl whom i relate more to.. like ppl who dance beside/ in front of me, leaders, &some special ones. hoping to edify em a bit before the final showdown, tmr!

OKAY OKAY. wadeva. its late.
tmr got to rch expo at 8am.
its 1.31am NOW. mean im left wit 4.5hrs of slp!!!
urgh

im so bored in class today;
~~that i downloaded songs in sch.~~

stupid songziyang. dont lemme see ur hair.. so bad. -.-

2007-05-25T15:55:00.000-07:00

iM IN CLASS NOW! yahoooooo!!

sabby just walked out of class for napfa test.

and my lecturer's BORINGG. :x

read this post!!

im not very close wit this girl but shes one of my juniors in my academic club.

and she really pissed me. not bad hur?

at least she CAN irritate me. HAHA :p

well well. she happily just COPIED my frenster contents.

also, in red fonts. (one of my fave color!!)

http://www.friendster.com/8020422
and it reads....

About Me:
D.I.A.N.A
1st October 1989

I BITE.
but ain't intimidating (:
i may not be a pretty girl.
but i am definitely a happy girl ^^

check mine out now.

http://www.chiobu.org/cgi-bin/nph-proxy.cgi/010110A/http/www.friendster.com/wshann

About Me:
TAN WEISHAN

THERESE

19th October 1988

I ROAR.

but im not intimidating (:

i may not be a pretty girl.

but im definitely a happy girl (:

what more i needa say? nobody likes to be copied and

definitely, nobody likes a copycat (:

im not veryveryvery angry, but im disgusted.

reason being, i went through a period of tough rocky time in life.

till i found my meaning once again, i found myself too.

so, i may not be superduper pretty, i know in my heart that im happy.

it MEANS sth.

not like YOU. copy blindly;

only change my ROAR into BITES!

and if you copy me, credit me lah.

ROOOOOOOOAAARRR~~

2007-05-25T01:23:00.000-07:00

im tired. who says im not? im a human too.
but i suddenly felt like a wonderwoman. power ranger. tarzan.
many more heroes! HAHA!
POS second and final preview is at EXPO hall 8 TOMORROW.
time? 7PM. means i'll have to take cab down.
lucky got 4 of us that end class at 6pm. HAHA :x
anw; tmr's a full dress preview.
JIAYOU JIAYOU JIAYOU!!!!

nono. God didnt say
i can do ~~SOME~~ things through Christ who strengthens me.
He said;
i can do ALL things through Christ who strengthens me! :)

thanks boyfren for being here and not ~~there~~ for me.
thanks mum &dad. for my dinner at 12am. its sumptuous.
i dunno how many POS ppl can have lotus lean meat soup, sambal sotong, kangkong &fried chicken as dinner when they rch home at 12am.
i almost teared. thanks mummy daddy. ilu both.

****** TESTIMONY TIME ******

number ONE.
im going to work again! same line. tution. HAHA.
Primary 1, 2 subjects, $14/hr.
THANK GOD! geeeehee!

number TWO.
YES YES YES YES !!
by faith; i laid hands on my dad and prayed for him!!
:D:D
his work's really tiring. and often, muscle ache.
so i'll massage for him when he request, usually fortnightly.
recently, as i spend time more outside home, i TRIED to be more filial.
and i start massage for my dad more (once in 2-3 days).

just now while i was massaging for him, i tot of praying for him ~~again~~. BUT. i felt that the alter in my living room is mocking at me. and true enough, serious; i was ~~frightened~~. VERY. but i just booop out; "DADDY, I PRAY FOR YOU!" he's like.. "huh? u serious ah? dont need lah." and i just say, "NEED NEED!" so i took this step of faith. WOAH. it went goooood. THANK GOD for this opportunity! thank God that my dad didnt scold me! its just the beginning! YES. a good one.

2007-05-23T00:41:00.000-07:00

this is seducing (:

Parade of School is my everyday now.
frm morning 8am i'll be in sch till 11pm.
train train train!
been seeing the same faces but i dont mind =)
OH. the costumes; our make-up etc.
its going to be GOOOOOOD; by faith! haha

ps: mummy daddy, thanks. iloveyou.
it really feels good to have your parents bug you home everyday for dinner. no, not irritating. yes, its because they miss me. thanks for those soup; it brightens up my night!

i love S.I.T club. i wanna do so much NOW. dont worry. its not words. its actions! EXCOS, get ready to be invaded by S.I.T club! our time is running out*

REPLYING TAGS

mallyyy: YES YES. lucky its a show only. phewwwww.

dawn: :D gladys back. all hype!

Dorii: WEYYYYYY. i only got prisca's! where's yours? BAD DORII. go fry you. :p

kim: CAN WE GO FOR BEANCURD SOMEDAY? go geylang one!

lucinda: GOT GOT. like malay there. lol. btw, i heard of heart of God before (: pst kong's veryvery worn out. but thank God he's still standing strong. must pray for him hur! he's on his 21 day fast.

2007-05-21T23:34:00.000-07:00

changed my blog song. my previous blog song was Goodbye by Janice. manymany frens asked me for the song. i think thats a really nice &sad song too. NOW. this song is frm the para para sakura movie. which is A GENERATION back. it makes me feel romantic! dedicating this to mister ng; my only colour; "because you said im your only colour too" (:

God clothed me wit glory &colours.
He gave me you too;like those colour balloons i'll hold tight.

well well, i missed POS today. my woman's pain was driving me ___. its not VERY pain. but the cramp is enough to kill my mood for all activities. i totally dont feel like moving// being boys is good in some ways.. at least they dont have to go through monthly moans.

and of course, i went home early to grab rest.

caught mars vs venus; had so much FEEL. i like this show so much that i hope i cld catch it everyday! but due to POS, i cant. because POS is until veryvery late in sch plus POS is practically everyday this wk! haha, we're in sch, manifesting glory of God! :p

there're a lot of interesting pts to look into;
1) woman can only have sex under the condition of love. but man can sex without love.
oh how true is it? guys, ans for yourself.

2) Nothing is worst for a woman, than to be betrayed by your best fren n your man.
seriously!!! i cant imagine prisca or jessie betray me (ALTHOUGH I KNOW THEY WONT) and worst still, i cant imagine my boy cheating to me (I TRUST YOU MISTER NG). but if they were to betray me together, its definitely going to be a "my-world-crashed" kinda thing.

well, reality check. can u tolerate YOUR boy hug another girl? the another girl's fiber will be on YOUR boy. can u imagine YOUR boy say ilu to another girl? IT HURTS. it will really hurt. its YOUR boy but u failed to keep his heart to u solely. the scar there for the girl can only be silence BUT it can never be erased. i bet this. GIRLS HAVE WONDERFUL POWER-PACKED MEMORY. try us. quarrel wit us today, and we'll bring u on a roller coaster ride back ten yrs. haha!

reminds me of wad pst taught. forgiveness = forget. you cant cant cant forgive 100% unless you forget wad happened. else, it'll rebounce back to u again n again.

2007-05-20T22:34:00.000-07:00

i love my boyfren. i love my boyfren. i love my boyfren. i love my boyfren. i love my boyfren. i love my boyfren. i love my boyfren. i love my boyfren. i love my boyfren. i love my boyfren. i love my boyfren. i love my boyfren. i love my boyfren. i love my boyfren. i love my boyfren. i love my boyfren. i love my boyfren. i love my boyfren. i love my boyfren. i love my boyfren. i love my boyfren. i love my boyfren. i love my boyfren. i love my boyfren. i love my boyfren. i love my boyfren. i love my boyfren. i love my boyfren. i love my boyfren. i love my boyfren. i love my boyfren. i love my boyfren. i love my boyfren. i love my boyfren. i love my boyfren veryveryvery much.

because he feeds me love pill everyday. every pill of different colour.
that made me so high (:
and im going to feed him love pills too!
so that he would be as happy as me; better, happier!

spiritual x-ray machine scanned me recently. seems like ive stayed where im for too long. i need a new BREAKTHROUGH, a fresh anointing!

RISE
says my LORD to me. i caught it.
:):)
wait. but how? teach me please. guide me for you know i'll follow.

POS first rehearsal today. WOAH. my leg's full of bruises! not blue black; BUT those patch of scratches. GOSHGOSH. i tell u sth! when i was bathing just now, it PAIN n STINGS like ten bees just stung those injured areas. so IMAGINE!!!! result of wrong sliding skills on stage. lols.. gotta buck up. thk God for cynthia n other nurses we have in NYP! haha :D

btw; many ppl asking me wad is POS. "may i have the definition pls?"
Parade Of Schools is a high-flying cheerleading extravaganza. It's a standard showcase of glitz and glamour featuring sizzling grooves, upbeat music and daring stunts. Focusing on the unity and creativity of each district cluster, teams cheer their way to clinch the coveted Parade of Schools trophy.

im veryvery interested to see how this event goes -> Vertical Marathon (individual)
know wad? participants are to compete by climbing a flight of 45-STOREY high of stairs at suntec tower. HOHO!! HOHOHO!! darn high can! so ppl, rem to pray for em (:
[i might pom-jek aft climbing 7 storeys! so dont dare me 45!! HAHA]

LASTLY;

HEHS :D:D:D:D:D

***im in big big big big BIG BIG pain now. shoooo!

2007-05-18T10:08:00.000-07:00

pride is the root.
kill it.

its okay even if i dont talk to her.
but seems to me that u're very contradictive, i cant understand you
or perhaps, frm last time till now, i never knew you.

because its pokes me too deep
you dont know. but it hurts to get angry everytime when u know u can do nothing.

2007-05-17T23:44:00.000-07:00

blink. all gone.

2007-05-17T23:30:00.000-07:00

REPLYING TAGS

dawn: OH. okay.. so sorry. i everytime forget lil things like THIS. :S hope u wont mind..
mallyyy: HAPPY BIRTHDAY PRETTY PRETTY!!! YOU'RE nineteen! loves. :D:D may u strike rich n have endless spreess! //HAIYOOOO. i cant comment u!! why?!
爱人: boy, i love u too (: u forgot wheres my cam?
g-ladies: your blog's back to function! HEHE
xiaoying: COLOR ME!?
LooN: ORHH eeee orrh! later i kill u ORH! yellow yellow dirty ranger!! :D
dwight: HAHA. not drooooool. is sleeeeep. (:
chenlei: may i have the chance to knock ur head? HOW COME YOU ALWAYS SKIP LESSONS?
SaBbY: HMM.
ao: imnotangryanymore.
cherylong: yes yes. ur "boyfren" is my buddy buddy for this yr's POS (:
xw: ZARA POKES YOU// hehs
priscaa: HOHO. u said its your treat arh! OKAAY. then veryvery fast :D yes yes. chocolate sprinkled wit rainbows!
jess: shld we have our PROMISED gathering before we forget abt each other? HMM
lucinda: I LOOK LIKE MALAY IN THAT PIC! btw, you're frm wad church?
joyce: BUT YOU LOOK MORE LIKE ONE!! :s
arthur: caught u sleeping soundly in class.
Dorii: ): i forgot to claim my present frm you!!
soon: how come nver call me?
jewelry: junior take care! (:
jez: FREN FREN. feel veryvery free to msg me! bu yao ke qi!

2007-05-14T23:46:00.000-07:00

weeee weeeeeeeee! i just popped two happy pills down the throat. :D
im having this urge to go ikea n balcony. anyone?
(my date to balcony wit waiwai haven come to past yet!)

went paya lebar and geylang today.
wit baby, cheryl, nicky n kelvin (:
A LOT of photos taken!!

__________________________________________________________

BUT well, lets REFER to days ago.
at vivo B&J
before meeting xiaowei, eugene &ao,
baby n me had pur date (:(: but its not up for blog yet;

lets start wit the 3 lovely SCOOPERS OF THE DAY!

ERR, backtrack, STATUES ground!
we see three TALL &HAPPY guys wit red giant.

the only two girls. STILL CAN GET HIGH :D

hoho. WEI WEI! happy happy....
wooooohooo!

:D:D ACTUALLY, i reeeeeally kissed her. nono. she didnt freak out aft that.
she just SCREAMED badly. HAHA cute eh?

BLINK BLINK!! when peanuts are like stardust, let gorge em!

oooooh mamamia~~ they look VERY inviting hur?
look at those brownies n cookies!

this is really funny! BUAY TAHAN!

i always think that group photos must be BIG. like this.
note: cutomers might not be always right. esp US.

baby, when we look back, lets shed tears. tears of affirmation. that we once laughed as one. and we smiled to the same camera happily as one.

theodore. weishan. cherly. ao. xiaowei. eugene.
looking very gay. gay as in DELIGHTED. :D

CHERYL ARH!
HAHA. this looks veryvery wrong. poor theodore.

NOW, this is our final product *drum rolls*
mr logistics, miss social, miss business, mr prest, mr &miss sports;
yoyo! our love in the hse!

HAPPY are the men!

its on the B&J pillar! YAYS.
dont forget to spot us the next time u patron vivo B&J-

before we leave, this B&J cow moo-ed us to take a photo wit him.

he's my most baichi best guyfren (:

be there for you;

2007-05-08T22:41:00.000-07:00

I wake up feeling like my life's worth living

Can't recall when I last felt that way

im veryveryvery tired. but i feel meaningful &happy.
i dunno how to blog the hundred photos taken ytd n today.
but thanks boyfren, thanks cheryl, thanks nicky, thanks xiaowei, thanks eugene, thanks the manymany people who brightens up my day (:

i thought my presentation today wld be screwed. left the file AT HOME this morning. retardedness -.- PHEW. thank God i manage to finish those slides wit help of sabby. BUT unlike sabby n cheryl, i never prepare for nuts! trust me- im praying even at der last SECOND of my presentation. well. der tutor gave me quite a good grade. high B+. is already veryvery good for someone who in-prompt to le. THANK GOD!!

muscle aches still. i wonder if ive just jumped out of der coffin\\
XV trial run's tmr. so excited! hope it'll turn out good. (:

ps: yan ting, please pleaseee get well soon. i miss u a lot ): u will be fine.

Reminder: mother's day this coming sunday! dont forget to get ready to love ur mum thrice!! (:

thanks people for tagging. else this blog will be very dead.
keep tagging here alrights? love. i'll reply tmr? or der day aft.

2007-05-06T23:10:00.000-07:00

i made a very impt decision in my life today.
thats to have one more commitment; POS, Parade of Schools.
i thought for a very very looooongg time to make this decision BECAUSE im afraid i cant manage. if i cant handle well my time, i know i will collapse. i kept rejecting pascale, ma, andy etc some time ago. but HMM. Pst kong really enlightened me. i crucified my flesh, die to myself today. i felt lyk ACTUALLY i still have a lot of time for a lot of things! its no longer me but Christ in me!! if its to glorify God, WHY NOT? anw im a NYPian. have der responsibility to back-up my own ppl!

// UNTIL today, i had my FIRST training at expo. traing starts a mth ago, and is very "SIONG". im not a very good dancer (obviously!). but im trying my veryveryvery best. and im really veryveryvery tired. thats still a lot to catch up wit der rest.

my knees were bruised. it hurts badly. but jiayong told me they went through der process before and understands. i felt so comforted. AT LEAST im not der ONLY one. (:(:

doooooo! this is jiayong!
business students equals nerdy? no NOT! crappy, maybe.

my dancing buddy.
because theres ONLY der two of us over "there".

can understand its tough for theresa n yong zhi. they're der so-call IC for this yr. must be very stress hur. have to come out wit steps, make us really pump n groooove etc. but LUCKY they're frm O' school and foreign bodies. have strong base.. anw, :D:D YAYS. im happy that we have em. we're a strong team!!
so wad if TP is loud (i mean very loud)?
so wad if SP is steady, ZAI?
so wad if NP is tough n have many stunts?
so wad if NUS is power-packed?
so wad if wad if wad if?
NYP wont lose out either OKAY! we're STRONG army of Christ!! (: geeeheee!

*JIAYOU LE!! tmr there's training at blk E.

Lord, let me decrease while You increase
-crucified.

2007-05-06T01:19:00.000-07:00

i love pst kong i love pst kong i love pst kong.
i strongly believe sermon of the Mount is going to change my life (=
His hands is already working in me now! im so excited! YAYS.

okayokay. we went to Jln chempaka Kuning. some part of bedok. for dinner.

menu n the guys ordering food.

the only two girls there. before me, sophia MUST BE very lonely.
-but der boys in our cg is good (:
*sophia's afraid of cats too! and she dares to catch cockroaches! same as me :D BUT she got a dog at home.. errrrr.

SEE! the many boys there.

alvin reminded us that tues is jo's bdae. BUT she'll be back frm china only on thurs. so, surprise suprise!! we're baking her a cheesecake. wait, not bake, is chill. its at joshua's place on wed.
//can already imagine how fun things can get :D

side-track.
* the mutton soup was great. HEHS. thats sophia's crave at der moment.

alvin and jiayong; we walked back to tanah merah station.
i was still at tanah merah at 10pm! gosh.

i was worried that this cg ppl wont lyk taking photos.
but im just so glad they didnt hate taking photos! :D:D:D

then i called darrion to see if we can meet. just nice, we met up tog wit andy, rachel n some others. but soon, one by one left. so im left wit darrion and his one fren.
it feels weird. maybe i never really talk to darrion for tooooo long or wad.
darrion looked at me and say ive changed a lot. to me, he changed so much too.
i just felt lyk, somehow, the person sitting next to me is a stranger.
but well. we both kept quiet for a moment n he's playing songs frm his phone.
to me, that short moment, we had der best conversation w/o talking.

prisca, darrion n me used to be so close. when der both of em were single, it seems lyk our world only have der three of us and God. we msg one another in daytime, have overnight chats AT LEAST twice a week. and things NEVER get sour. now that everything have changed, i know in my heart that we cant travel back in time anymore.

):
ive learnt to smile.
as long as they're happy now*

im unhappy recently. i feel.. sad. plain busy only.
i guess ive lost the first love amidst all dates n work.
i took everything of Him for granted, including His love for me. ):
i forgot that i dont own anything here. everything i have now belongs to Him.
but im going to fight for the love once again.
i know that He have called me. i heard Him.
and im so going to rely on Him now.
every single minute, every decision; kingdom-minded.
Jesus, i love You. i need You here.

i got to wake up at 7am tmr morning!! sleep sleep sleep!!